If you dont. We dont even need to discuss or settle anything.

If yes, then i'm gonna tell you this. Ask yourself what had happened.

A friend of mine, told me about her past with you. You're not, NOT even in a relationship with her yet ... stayed together alone at her house ? Spending time together. This is the second time i heard from her about this. Trust me, it turned me all upsy tursy. The more i tried trusting you, the more i heard all this kind of negative stuffs. YES, IT IS YOUR PAST. What will happen if its brought to the future ? The reason why im asking you all the questions and not answering your question is to rise your awareness about us. Do you even care ? Its been repeated. And i realised my mistakes long time ago, here, i'm trying so hard to recover it, yet ? I tried to stay because I felt i've not done enuf for us but at the end, the same all shit happen.

IT HURTS every time you asked me " Then, whats next ?" , what ? If im that heartless, i can simply say, GOODBYE. Here im not being that way, i wanna settle it nicely yet you're being sarcastic with me ? I dont mind playing with games okay. I wish you could understand. Really. Maybe, the reasons behind my presence in your life is just to make you realize something. I'M TIRED of all this, trust me. I used to say, once i gave up, at any point, i can just say thank you for everything.

I just want to settle all this properly and nicely and next, i want everything to go smoothly but if there's aint anymore chances, fate will decide by then.

I'm not finding fault. I wanna make it right. Please dont be so egoistic. I've endured with all this. You're hot and you're cold. At times you're good and at times you're not. What ? Which one are you ? What do you exactly want ?

I'm tired with all the heartpain. All the heartpain throwned. Please. All this IS affecting me and my studies. I'm not throwing all this to you but just one thing i want you to know.

REALIZE. Think about it yourself.