Misses.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010 @ 8:23 PM
Annyeong Haseyo.
Wanna know something ? I miss a number of people that used to/still making me smile.
If only i dare to insert some real names, i would have to.
I miss those in Usual Crew. MySlenger. Pangel. Yoseob Gay Partner/First fan. Spongebob. Ben 10.
I seriously hate when good things have to come to an end. Its bullshit. If there's only a moment where i want all this people to come together with me and let me tell them every single in and out confessions. But i don't think it will happen. If any of those names are reading this, i wanna say that, i love you to be around me, bad things always happen but at times, things just happen or maybe things are just meant to be that way. Saranghae. :D
Tomorrow is December, like what i wished at the other post, i'm not sure if im able to handle/achieve it. Gotta change things here and there. My missing people, can i turn back time and make it better this time ? Hais. I wanna destress, red radii oppa, please fly to singapore soon. I wanna get into the dance floor.
Yes, you.
Saturday, November 20, 2010 @ 10:33 PM
I'm not the girl that runs up to you when I see you. I'm not the girl who jumps at every moment when talking to you. And yet I'm the girl who loves you the most.
Labels: Patrick's bestfriend.
Gotta change.
@ 9:17 PM
" Go ahead and say goodbye, I'll be alright. Go ahead and make me cry, I'll be alright.
Cause this is love and life and nothing we can both control and If it don't feel right, you're not losing me by letting me know. "
November is coming to an end. December is coming to a start. I don't wanna start my December feeling the same way i felt in November. I wanna to change how things work now. I don't wanna pretend i'm fine. I want to be fine. I don't wanna get bothered about dreams, cause I want those dreams to happen. I don't wanna keep falling and bringing up myself all alone. I need someone to hold me tight and bring me up together.
Just one thing, If at the end, you're not the one, I don't mind cause I know you used to own me and I used to own you. But i must say that, I hate you because you own something in you thats in me, which is my love that i've given to you. Well, i hope you'll lead a successful life. I'll keep this love till it fades away. From blooming, fading and dead. From i know, you don't know and still you don't know. Thank you so much for everything. I know you're gonna read this sooner or later. Yes, i'm talking about you, boy.
Labels: I miss having someone by my side that can always make me smile
Killa.
@ 12:29 PM
Otaaaaaaaaak saket.
Firstly, i wanna thank Spongebob for remixmixmixmix our song. You'll get your reward soon. :D
Secondly, i've got a problem down here. I don't know how to react to my current situation.
Thirdly, disturbing part where i've been having dreams of him and always him. When i woke up, it will always leave me with a big question mark or i can't remember the dream at all. That suck.
I'm nervous for them. Lets just do it and get it done.
Loves & Misses.
Thursday, November 18, 2010 @ 10:08 PM
" The reason of hating them because they have something in them thats in me, which is the love that i've given them. "
I realized I was pretending that I'm fine losing them, separating with them, when I'm actually not. I miss Pangel and Spongebob alot. I'm not lying.
Breathe
Saturday, November 13, 2010 @ 10:19 PM
BUSY BUSY BUSY BABY !
Real busy days coming right up. Current concentration is dance and somehow acting audition. Classes for this whole week and then i can concentrate on my current concentration.
Hopefully i got into the acting scene. :D Passion is near.
The Last Shot is gonna perform at Square 2 Novena on 26th Nov. Come down and support okaaaaay. :D
November busy. Dot. I hate it.
Gotta have fun still ! Spread the love.
Pangel. Dangel.
Sunday, November 7, 2010 @ 10:29 PM
7 Months of going through sweetness and bitterness. Tragic. Today, i realized i was wrong about something. Maybe i was right, only that, it was better. I didn't expect this to happen but it did.
This someone who tried so hard to be there for me. He's really nice. He showered love constantly.
There's also this someone who existed first before this guy i called P.angel. The guy that existed is also purely nice, but things do happened that made our friendship went haywire. P.angel, the one who tries hard. The one who is always patient with my attitude. I appreciate his presence in my life. He tried so hard to be good. The sweet one.
I thought the other guy was the one who could be the one who really sticks but I was wrong, P.angel is the one who really sticks throughout. Ending a bad friendship with him was good. But abandoning our feelings isn't good. Once in love with P.angel but we both were simply OS, over-sensitive about each other. Thats the bad thing about us. So we ended. Today, we reminisce our past. Totally touches my heart, i must say. I do missed the old times. But we can't go on this way.
This are the few songs that tells the storyline of our story.
Jangan Nakal (Alif)
- I once told him that if he sings me this song, I'll love it. This song became our main song in this friendship.
Angel (Shaggy)
- The sweet song that he tributes to me. Darling angel is what he called me, from this song because he said i'm like the meaning of the song. Till today, Dangel still sticks.
Key To My Heart (Jessica Jarrel)
- When i fell for him, this is the song that i tribute to him. It was sweet but painful.
6 Months (Hey Monday)
- A song that i tribute to him when im feeling that im clapping with one hand. I hopes he feels me.
Things get much more complicated after that, we quarreled, we misunderstood.
Mad (Neyo)
- Things went haywire, this song is for us. We cant find the reasons why are we like this.
Lonely September (Plain White T's)
- Sweets. We didn't mean to fall in love, but we did.
Just for us.
Missing You( The Saturdays)
- Tribute for him. Listen to it okay (:
There's certain part that is not true. So yeah.
After all this realization, i must say that, he's the one who has been there. I can see his efforts till today. He tried so hard to do something great to convince me. I appreciate it so much. Where are we heading next, Pangel ? We'll see. ^^
After Love.
Saturday, November 6, 2010 @ 7:31 PM
I don't wanna be good nor bad.
I don't wanna be fair or unfair.
I don't wanna be heaven or hell.
I don't wanna be evil.
I don't wanna be 'imprisonment'.
I don't want things to haunt me down.
I don't wanna cry all night long.
I don't wanna keep hanging around and act as if nothing happened.
I don't wanna stay this way.
I don't wanna be a victim.
Love, set me free.
I don't wanna hate you for what you've done.
I don't want this friendship to be ruined of an error we've done.
I don't want to abandoned this love I had for you, but i had to.
I thought that you could be the one who will always put a smile on my face, i was wrong.
I don't want things to relate to you any longer, but it does.
I wanna forget what we had gone thru together, but i can't.
I didn't expect you to do all this to me, but you did.
I expected just a separation, but it was more.
I expected the separation good, but it was bad.
You kept me hanging, i want to but that hurts the most.
Its true what your friend said, you're afraid you'll abandoned me, you did.
This is more than pretend, this is more than a game.
I don't wanna cling on you anymore.
I hope for your happiness with who ever you want.
You ever said, "I'll be happy if you're happy with whoever you're with/that can make you happy", everytime you said that, i'll typed out, "Ya, im happy being with you." but after that I'll erased it off cause Im afraid to tell that you're the one. You're the one im happy with. Time flies real fast. I closed my eyes, i saw us. The next moment, you fade away.
I can't hold on to you any longer.
You was once my pillar of hope. But my hope crashed. Maybe it was partly my fault too, for hoping on you so much.
Well, have a good life ahead. Wish for your happiness.
Much Love, Nemo.
Labels: Specially for: SB.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010 @ 5:51 PM
Im done here. I've made up my mind.