Post .
Sunday, January 31, 2010 @ 9:56 PM
Yesterday ;
Met up with Roy , im still figuring out whether its fated or coincidence . While walking to library , i encounter with Roy . After those 'teardrops' and 'fights' , not really , we met up and we're heading the same place which is the library . So we hung out and 'joke' around . Aww , just so weird but nice . There's a wisdom on why i cancelled my plan yesterday .
Today ;
I went to Twinneh's house since she's alone . Chit and chat . Laughed and get crazy . Headed to JP and bought our lunch , back to Twinneh's house and lunching . 6pm headed home . Sorry to some ppl , didnt really reply your text msges . Busy assignmenting . Kindda .
And, to the picture below , is for MS , sorry didnt showed you on my DP , ive got this fear , ive got no idea why . And guess , because of that , you're mad . Sorry , so here you go .
And im off , gotta pack my bag now . Toodles ~

THIS IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TWO-ZERO-ZERO-EIGHT ! -.-'
Labels: Just in case, you're not clear .
:D
Friday, January 29, 2010 @ 8:31 PM
A guyfriend came to me and said : " Shekyn ! Last long ! " , and he walks away . LOL !
I was lost at the moment but then I just realised 'someone' who was standing beside me was one of my people . Then i went to Shafiqa and said , " Since when im in a relationship ? " . NYEHAHAH !
Okay , sorry im just being random cause Im happy ! :D
I guess , school was fine just now . I didnt attend for cca . Sick sick sickening . Its been 2 weeks . Power jack . Life's better now . Better as in recovering/healing from whatever that happened in the past few days, weeks or even months . Heck to the Care . Im supposed to catch up with a few things within this month and im not sure if i can catch up with it . Hair ? OHMYGAWD . Still havent decide on whaaat to do with my hair . So yeah , gonna update My Slenger's bloggy now , since he gave me the chance ^^ .
Toooooooodles ~
Labels: I didnt know that i was afraid of my own shadow . lmao .
Insert Title .
Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @ 9:57 PM
Heylo Beylo ! ^^
Alright . Sooooooo ... today was good . No any negative thinggy thinggy happened . Thanks to Rara , hahahaahah ! She gave me a surprised by giving me my beloved instructor's FB . Aww , thanks Rara ! :D So hawt . So adorable . *melts*
Alright , so as usual . Love problems . Not meh but my dear girlfies . Chill yo girlfies . Dont stress abt being iar with someone or even fights with yr boyfies cause ... (insert reasons) . Im sooo relaxed now , love and life ? Chilling as usual . SA is back ! Just finding the right time to talk to my people .
Chill yo D , R , N , F and K . :D
Im not sure why but im like so hyper , no , im just happy ! Yaaaaaaaah . Ive got no idea why .
The bestest thing was that , I didnt even shed a tear for 'PEOPLE' . The Kims knew this thing , so yeah . Life is so complicated . And i love it cause it makes you wonder . I love to wonder .
Okay people , sorry and im crapping . Im just crapping all the things that came thru my mind now . Random post yeah . I feel so good . Feel my happiness , people . :D
XOXO !
Labels: dulu uh ., I syg you
Complication .
Tuesday, January 26, 2010 @ 10:34 PM

" He answered to my doubts. "
I always thought we could renew it , always coming back and tried to renew it but we failed .
Maybe i failed . Its been so many times , we've gone thru the same old story but this time round , we really end it . Not we , its you . I don't understand why , why must you eventually ask me to take you back in your arms but when i took you back , this is what you did . Ya , it was my choice but you're the one who gave me the chance . It was lucky that I didnt even put a single hope on you this time round cause I know , it will still come to an end , soon . Yes , it did , today .
Though you kept quite or even said you're busy , when the fact is that you dont wish to even talk , i know it was all a lie . Why , why must you even do that , isit my fault at first . Like what i said before , if you ever thought i moved on before this , you're totally wrong but now , yes i am . Thanks to you . I dont even know whats your motive on doing this to me . You said 1432 ? HAHHAHA. Funny hell. Now , its all gone , just like that , without any reason . You're with someone else . Thanks alot . I dont need any explanations now . Its nothing .
I once said , im gonna call you and say that I hate that I love you .
Cause baby , you're lying and im moving .
My blog songs suits you . Anw , last long .
Labels: Oh I Hate You . IHYTILY .
Missing .
Wednesday, January 20, 2010 @ 9:21 PM
I MISS ;- your cheeky smile .
- your lame jokes .
- the way you laughed eventhough its not funny .
- your sarcasm .
- the way you react at certain things .
- the way you talk .
- the way you crap .
- the way you treat me .
- when you suddenly randomly said ," I love you lah " . its the best thing ever and i always reply the opposite way .
- your sincerity , honesty .
sadly , guys think too straight . its kindda too late to say that " i dont want you to leave me . "
you moved on ald . so now , its my turn . i dont know how long it will take me but .. i'll try my best .
you thought it will be easy for me , but it was never . as like what you said , go to other guys and forget abt you , heartbreaking , i failed . you're still the one i dreamt , the one i desire , the one i still need . and so , im dead and gone from your life .
Labels: i cant help but breakdown ..... and cry ... ( IMY ) .
We're not meant to be .
Sunday, January 17, 2010 @ 10:00 PM
4th post for today . Its not really obvious so i post and post again . :D
WHADDA DAAAAAAAAAY , SUCHA SHOCKING DAY !
Okay , so what i did today is just ...
- Library-ing .
Fir , Faizul , Sabrina , Putri and Zainab + Faizul's bestfriend . After that , everyone went their own way .
- JP .
Someone texted me , after 2 weeks didnt even contact and my hp bad mood , so i can't reply his msg . Its hard for me to reply cause the keypad dotdotdot .. Okay , so headed to JP , the back door from library side . So yeah , i was wondering why that msg was sent to me from SOMEONE. So i said to my friend , " sekali jumpe (insert name) eh . "
Translation : " Eh , suddenly coincidently met up with him eh ? ... "
LESS than 10 stupid steps , he's just infront of me . Hows that ?
We faced each other blankly , just grin and waved . Its sucha disappointing moment .
I told my friend that what actually happened bothers me ALOT . Im not sure why .
And he's using white . ASTAGARAAAAAAAAAAAAAA .
Ive been dreaming(mimpi) abt that someone this few days , i dont understand why , still .
You've been playing on my mind , like seriously . I hate it , of course .
Too bad , you moved on so fast . You're ald otw to another path . Im still at the same path strolling away . I guess . People said , its fated that way . Its been days , I thought of you .
Then suddenly you appeared infront of my eyes . It bothers me . But yeah , moved on .
To My Slenger and My Bestfriend . Not sure if you guys are reading it but ... ;
I never had forgotten the love you guys showered me . The care and concern you guys gave .
Those laughters and tears we shared . Never forgotten . The pain we got thru . Its just , things changed . People changed . Im sorry if at the end , I have to hurt you guys . Cause I dont have a choice . I dont wish to hurt any but it will be unfair . You guys have ever exist in my love life , my love story . It doesnt mean i didnt talk to you guys that much , I forgotten everything . Never .
How bad my short term memory lost can be , I still remember those times we shared .
I love you , MS and BF . (':
Love, suck .
@ 2:36 PM
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh , guys .Im tired of it . To that bustard , die hard eh jack .
I gave you the chance , you took it for granted . You took the wrong steps .
At the end , this is what you get ! Anw , last long with your gf okay . -.-'
You're lucky that your dear friends are still good . Aww , im so proud of your friends , atleast they got this disappointed and maybe abit of guilty feelings after what you did to me .
At the first place , you wasnt the one ive choosen . Too bad . It was my vampire who i chose , sadly , xevol came across my mind . And everything went upside down .
I still dont understand why , YOU , XEVOL , you exist in my dreams . OMFG !
Its been days you existed in my dreams and I hate it , of course .
Anw , good luck in your love life okay . As what i said to you on the 5th Jan , its not that easy for me to move on , but you said " I know its gonna be easy cause many guys admired you .... " . Guess my words were true that ITS NOT THAT EASY FOR ME TO MOVE ON , sadly . Life has to go on .
Whooooooooooots ~
My dear girlfriends is having great time with their BFs .
Tweeeets ~ :D
Labels: of course ., SARCASM
@ 2:26 PM
If you ever came across , do read it . Cause its ..All Because Of You .
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Peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeps .
DO VIEW MY TUMBLR .
wakingup-reality.tumblr.com
Love .
@ 12:51 AM
I didnt know its this hard to move on.
Labels: again .
:D
Thursday, January 14, 2010 @ 10:32 PM
My previous post was powerful man , I love !
Okay so , this post is for my 2 peoples . F and D .
To D :
Im sorry to have 'decline' you . You should totally know why . And you're forgiven . Just hope that you could move on and don't do the same things that you did to me . Yeah , i hate that part but i guess its just a mistake or a wrong step you took to attract me to you but .... sadly . (':
To F :
THANK YOU SO MUCHY ! for the songs you played thru piano just now . It was soooo ... sweet and nice of you . There's so many more things I wanna share but uhm , not now maybe . :D
Sucha dream come thru .
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School's good much but busy with stuffs . OMGEE . I dont feel like going or having a CCA . Can i like stop ? NO . Love life , good enough . Thank you to those guys for being so understanding and trustworthy and willing to let go . (': And at times , i remembered you . Suddenly thought of you and im not sure why . But i was willing to let go cause I know you are having a good life , im sure you're happy of letting me go that time . So ya .
CCA starts TOMORROW and that S-U-C-K . Thats the only thing thats gonna suck big time .
Labels: I found my vampire lover .
For all ladies , also for guys to know .
@ 9:59 PM
Hi babe ♥
Here’s to all those girls who used to be his number one.
The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check your cell phone the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, “I only want to be your friend”, one day, then listened to him say that he loves and misses you, and the next when he doesn’t want to be anything at all. Here’s to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.
We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, got crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him even for a while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us.
Here’s to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here’s for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn’t possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn’t treat us the way we should be treated.
Here’s for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest everything, only to hear him say that he couldn’t see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn’t believe that he could do this to us again.
This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn’t bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder “what if”.
This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, and cried during the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn’t mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with.
This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that “You’re just not the one for me.” or maybe, “things were going too fast, I’m just not ready.” (Then later on find out he has a damn girlfriend already.)
Here’s to the girls who couldn’t cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt.
The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn’t bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an “I told you so.”
The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again.
We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us when ever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.
Here’s for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave one thought about them.
Here’s for the time that he took to waste, breaking your heart … again.
This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.
Here’s for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.
This is for those confusing days, when you miss him,and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist.
Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes it’s better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt all over again.
Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that.
When your song comes on the radio, turn the station.
When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off.
When he tries coming to your house, don’t answer the door.
Think of all the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the HELL he was.
Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn’t him, and realized that once again, he hadn’t called when he said he was going to.
One day, you’ll find a guy who’s worth all the tears, but he won’t make you cry. You may think that you’ll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will.
It’s gonna hurt like hell, and it’s going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal. <3
Originally - Raudah Yusoff .
Labels: Heartbreaks
Camp .
Sunday, January 10, 2010 @ 11:09 AM
Welcome Back Shekyn Ahmad ! :D
Helloh Peeeeeeeeeeps . Its been 12345678910 days since I last update this dead blog .
2010 , WOW . Its just January and so many things happened . SO much more than that , I hate it .
8th , came back from Sec 3 Camp . The camp as just fine , suck alot but not 'those' instructors . :D
06 Jan :
- Reached school . Assemble .
- Off to NS Team Academy @ Bukit Batok .
- Interaction , Briefing with Instructors .
- Lunch .
- Supposed to be on High Elements but since it was raining , Campfire Preparation then .
( The best part when I got to know my instructor . )
- Games , Team Building .
- Dinner .
- Crap , Joke , Lame stuffs with Instructors . Nizal and Khalis . This 2 jokers .
Blindfold game .
- Supper and Shower .
- Bed time baby .
07 Jan :
- 6am ; Shower .
- 745 ; Assemble .
- Changi Coast , Kayaking and Sea Rafting .
- Head back to BB and had lunch .
- High Elements .
- Shower .
- Dinner .
- Campfire .
- Supper . The most saddening and heartaching part . D':
- Bed time baby . Gfs shared heartache love story of theirs . CAPEK DEH GW !
08 Jan :
- 6+am ; Shower & Pack up .
- Assemble .
- Breakfast .
- Area cleaning .
- Debrief .
- Head back to school .
Damn , overall it was terribly disappointing . Just don't have the 'camp' mood .
The food suck . Those ladies instructors ...... speechless . My Instructor Nizal , wasnt always there with my group . So we didnt really spent so much time with him . So yeah . So sad . TCO .
There's much things related to you and I hate it .
Group Number 11 , Dorm(?) number 8 .
Just wanna say , Thank you so much to my Brother Kas for cheering me up the day before I went to the camp . I didnt know there's so much surprises that night . I also wanna apologise to you for my unusual behaviour and thank you cause you had been treating me so nice-ly . :D
Labels: suck ., those numbers
Energy .
Friday, January 8, 2010 @ 11:38 PM
I wish I could rip out a page of my memory
'cause I put to much energy in him and me
Can't wait till I get through this phase
'cause it's killing me
To bad we can't re-write our own history
Such a mystery when he's here with me
It's hard to believe I'm still lonely
Chance's fading now, patience running out
This ain't how it's supposed to be
I'm having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
How do we re-reverse the chemistry
I don't want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy
Energy, my energy
Taking all my energy
Energy, my energy
Taking all of ( my energy )
Seems only like yesterday, not even gravity
Could keep your feet off the ground when you go to me
How can two be as one
We've become to divided now
There's no use hiding from my misery
Now I can feel a change in me
And I can't afford to slip much further
From the person I was meant to be
I'm not afraid to walk alone
Not give it up but moving on
Before it gets too deep
'cause you're taking all of my energy
I'm having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
How do we reverse the chemistry
I don't want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy
You're killing me
You're taking all of me yeah, oh
This love is taking all of my energy .
Labels: Keri Hilson .
Sunday, January 3, 2010 @ 9:32 PM
Is everything fading away AGAIN ?
2010 .
Friday, January 1, 2010 @ 11:46 PM
Happy New Year Everyone !
Forget the Past , Treasure the Present & Hopes the Best for the Future .
Hopefully 2010 will be a wonderful journey . :D
Much love , SA .
Labels: 143, S .