I need to confess somethings . Heh . The things im gonna share is abt ; - What happened today . - Results ( thru PSS webby )
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah ! Today was A W E S O M E ! Woke up this morning , feeling like fainting but still manage to get up and got ready fr school . Seriously , my morning sucks but eventually it turned out to be good during the late morning . Hehhhhhh .
As i said in the previous post , a booth was set up-ed . Sold ' Heat Shrinkable Bookmark ' , ' Secret Messenger ' and ' Jengga ' . Jengga is a game . Lol . I loveeee the secret messenger part where someone will do the ' HSB ' for their 'someone' and any of the sellers will send it to the 'someone' . How sweeeeeeet . It was a success ! We managed to collect ($) and there are still many orders and we have to do and give those order-ers tomorrow . The bussiness was great !
After that , NCDCC , I was really pissed off , Im super tired and gotta attend helped out with Inter-Unit Competition and also the Sec 1s Swearing In but afterall , it was GREAT ! Thanks to some ppl especially my V that crappppped alot . Jurong West , West Spring , Juying , Boon Lay was there as well , they came to Pioneer i mean . Gathered at AVA Theatre , groupings and stuff , YEAY ~ Im the leader/IC of Grp 5 , my members , I love . They was awesome ! After quizzing , tend-pitching , lashing , frisbee-ing , captains ball-ing and here we go the Swearing In part , it was nothing much but overall it was FUN and AWESOME-age ! Fav-ed the last part . Hahhhhhhhh , V .
Okay , results ! Results are ald out in the PSS forum . Idk if its ald confirm but i got Literature and F&N , yeayyyyyyyy ~ Im happy with it . Babeyh , but dont tell me im gonna read Harry Potter like WHAT ?! Twinneh can lahhhhhhh . Should i appeal ? Hist or Geog ? Oh , no way . I suck in both ! Reading ? MYGOD , im not a bookworm like my Twinneh ! Gotta think hard abt this . But im happy that I got literature cuz its easy only that gonna read books . But im fine with it , I THINK ?
TOMORROW IS A NIGHTMAREEEEEEEEEE . RESULTS !
OH YES , TODAY IS THE 28TH . So .. its someone's birthday and yes , he's ald 17 . HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY SHAZWAN SAPUWAN !
Toooooooodles ~
It was supposed to be today , the day he should received it but it didnt turned out that way cuz my plans was destroyed . I destroyed it cuz its not worthy . Im not gonna regret this , I just gonna keep it until the right time fr me to replan it , if its worthy and if there's even another chance . Best wishes fr you .
Busy busy busy busy ! Hahh . As usual , my busy-ness still can update . Of course . Gawd , tmrw will be having Carnival fr Charity fr Batam Trip . Do support us , TYSM . After that , gotta attend NCDCC Inter-Unit Competition cum Sec 1 Cadets Swearing In . Gonna be home , night , all alone . Stuupid ass lah , Twinneh is not around . -.-
Anyone wanna join me burning some stuff , Lala and Rara should like this . Even Zaf . Join me yeahh , burn those presents . Its gonna be good . Wont regret it . Those presents are ald not worthy , it was worthy at first but as the date gets nearer , the unworthy-ness gets higher chance to win . So just forget abt it . Tysm to my dear friends who had encourage me to give that present to ( insert name ) . Looks like its a bad idea but whatever it is , still gonna be good and still gonna wish ( IN ) a happy birthday in advanced .
Oh yes .. Not forgetting . I wanna wish someone , someone who invited me to his life once but it wasnt for long . I wanna wish this person ,
Buruknye drawing . So sorry Shzwn .
This is for Shazwan Sapuwan . Though we're somehow in 'bad terms' just wanna wish you Happy Lovely 17 Birthday ! Best wishes fr you , my dear friend . Guess you're moving on and yes of course , im happy for you . I told you so . Be happy with yr FG and yes , whoever she is , Im sure she's gonna make you happy in anyway . Whatever happens before or after this , hopefully we're still friends . Thank you for everything . Though i told you , ISHFY but sometimes , there's someone else that could replace that place . (:
"Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours , Never regret over the things that had happened cause it was just fated that way . "
Heylo world .
Lemme just share about yesterday and today also about whats happening currently around my world .
25 ; - Splashing in the morning/afternoon . - Sent Twinneh to the airport yesterday night . ( I almost cried , I was seriously holding on to my tears but at last I just gotta burst it out but not in the airport , I was somewhere ... )
26 ; - Movie-ing with NatyQa and Lala , watched Sister's Keeper . I swear , it was super sad , I gotta burst into tears again . - Came back , JP-ing , shopped for someone's pressie and I dont know if its gonna be worthy if i gave it to the person . So yeah , not now eventhough its coming up quite soon . I give up lah .. Just gonna keep it .
Tomorrow school-ing . 3 days of school and school close . LIBUR DEHHH ! And thats the time where Im gonna 'transform' back . Its gonna be good , i supposed . Seriously afraid to face the reality whether Im going to Sec 3 or not . Did quite badly fr EOY . I dont wanna know , seriously . Can i like go somewhere now ? Somewhere farr away ?
Lastly , I wanna apologise to anyone if im gonna act weirdly or something . Not being myself this days . Im trapped in someone else's world . And ive got no idea whats happening to me . This is so emo but im not being emo here , just emotional .
Alright , im sicked and im tired . Goodbye blog readers .
" Love can make you happy but often times it hurts, but love is only special when you give it to who its worth. "
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmygod .
Today was niceee . Off 'shopping' just now with Twinneh Sha, Aunty(Her Mother) and Fathin(?) on Sha's stuff for her Denmark trip . Went to JP and walk walk , buy buy , eat eat and off to Lot 1 . She bought herself a bag for that Denmark trip . This and that . Went off to her grandma's house . Yeahhh , was supposed to sleep over at her house but yeahh , my aunty came . So gotta go backk homee . Currently , blogging and chatting with My Slenger ! :D
Ohhhhhh , Twinneh Sha will be away for a week and that suck because , Ive got no friend to go to school with , Ive got no friend to go back home with , No friend to curhat , No friend to work with . Ish . Bad stuffey ! But whatever it is , make sure you go there safely and come back safely . Jangan cuci mate oi , setia jer yang pat sini . XPXD
And Twinneh , I want souveniers from Denmark , ape-ape lah asalkan mahal eh . Mat Denmark pon boleh ah eh . Kay . :D
Twinneh Shekyn & Twinneh Sha . Good thing that im already in good terms with her . ( Since when i had bad terms with her ? Misunderstanding . )
YOOO !
Its been 4 days I didnt update this almost dead blog . So sorry . Brother had been using this lappy . At last , today he's not around . Ohh , yes . Exam's over which means I will be getting my results back , overall , I did fine for EOY but still bad cuz I failed some stupid subjects . -.-
Life ; Fine . Good . Bad . I dont know ? Boring . Just speechless of what happened to me last few days .
Love ; Dont ever dream for a relaxing love life . NEVER . Ive been having dreams about my ex and my admirer. S , you've been in my sweetdreams + my nightmare . F , you've been only once in my sweetdream . B , wait lah wait . HAHHAHH . XP
I wanna apologise to every members in UC (Ladies) ; - Twinneh Shafiqa !^m^ - Lala Cutestuff ! ^^ - Zaza Hotstuff ! ^^ - Rara Crazystuff ! ^^ - NatyQa Sexystuff ! ^^ - Shud Rockstuff ! \m/
Shazwan , whatever happened to you , whatever you did to me , whatever games you're playing . Just want to see you in good terms and yes , of course , recover soon alright . Come back home and have a good rest . ISHFY . You have TOO MUCH suprises .
Toodles ~
I think , I ever posted this picture before but nevermind , post again . Heh . Random picture anw . :D
" You never know what you have until you lose them. " - quoted from Ayeen .
Ohhhhhhhhhhhh , today was enjoyable but not that real fun . ShikinBarney had an open hse earlier on , she fetched me around 1+ infront of my hse . Goooooooood right . -.- Walked to her hse and I was kindda afraid that I'll be the first visitor . XD Luckily im not the first one . That was kindda close .
Reached her house , straight away went inside her room and maked-up from her . I didnt know her 2nd brother was good on make up-ing . Cooooooool . XD Yeahhh , he was asking me about NCDCC stuff . Bleahhh . After those make up-ing stuff , took Yulie and her younger sister from the block .
Kill time like seriously , waited for Barney NT's gang also for Fyqah and Aidah . This and that . Oh , I must say this , I LOVE the last part . Photo taking ! I will upload it only if/when Barney send me those pictures . I'll be glad to post it here . ^^ Went to Pioneer Mall with Fyqah and Aidah , bought something and went homee .
And im so gonna splash into the water ... tomorrow . Lastly , I LOVE OUR LITTLE DIRTY SECRET BARNEY ! :D
Toooooooodles ~ :D
This time round , I really lose you , bestfriend . There's no turning back , you're already heading the other path . Goodbye .
When you left that second onwards , this life felt as if it lost an organ from its body which is its heart .
Ive lost a friend . Ive lost a listening ear . Ive lost a shoulder to lean/cry on . Ive lost a bestfriend . Ive lost a admirer . Ive lost a crush . Ive lost a love . Ive lost the person in my dreams . Ive lost the sweet and bitter memories . Ive lost you . You left me all alone here without you , bf .
Ive tried my best to stop you but I guess nothing could change your mind , your decision . I gone speechless listening to that . I shed a tear for you , for your sadness . Im hoping for the best . I wish to receive a good news from you in the next few months . Please . ISNY .
You've promised me to stay safe wherever you are . Just one thing , Im still here for you .
Our memories together , Are everlasting , Each time you disappear from my eyes , The more i miss you . I end up reminscing about your smile , And the time our love first started to blossom , So much , til' the end of time , As tears of sorrow trickle down my cheek . I love you faithfully , There is nothing that I'll regret , Although this much can only keep me company , A thousand memories . Give me the most beautiful , Every second spent together , Then, finally I'll leave myself to languish , From a life without your love . - Seribu Kenangan .
Now , we're BEST T ! PS : This post is for my BEST T . I guess , this time now , everything is okay . Just put down the phone with him few minutes back and he's fine . Thank God .
English P1 - Ohhhhhhhh , easey ! English P2 - Okay lah . Both easy and difficult . Maths P1 - Difficult ! Maths P2 - GOD ! It was easy , if just i didnt forget the formula and methods . LIKE SERIOUSLY ! MT P1 - Uhrmm , difficult abit i guess . MT P2 - OHH , okay lah . still difficult abit . Science - G&D ! Geography - INAALILLAH ... D&T - Easy but certain qns , crap alot . Literature - GOOD GOOD , I CAN DO . Art - MY GOD , IF JUST TIME COULD GO A LIL BIT MUCH MORE SLOWER .
Overall , everything was fine . Im not sure if im gonna pass but yea , im hoping fr the best . Lets talk abt life , my current life , kindda good . Love life , uhrm , im totally not into relationships now , uhrm , admire here and there , can .
Days ahead ; Gonna spend time with UC and bestfriend . :D
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SERIOUSLY , THIS IS SUCHA RANDOM POST . Ive got no idea what to do like seriously . This post is for my bestfriend . My BGF . Whoever tu , dont have to get jealous . L O L . AS IF there's someone thats gonna be jealous . *sigh* But to my bestfriend . I wanna say this ..
I love you for who you are . I hate you for (insert sentence) . And lastly , Im missing you yaw . (insert date), lets meet kay !
AND YES , I WANT THE RING FROM YOU . NOT from my FH , okay ? :D
Saw the heart shape ? HAHAH . This is what bestfriends do . :D
Today was such a swayyyyyyyyyy day ! Seriously man !
Today was Maths paper , OHMYGOD , how sway could it be , I left 6 blanks on that sheet . After recess was Geo paper , It was o-kay but knowing the result later on will turn kay-o . After exams , planned to go to the library so yeah , was really excited to go home and ive got no idea why , wanna get changed , bath and whatever then meet girlfies at the library but when I stepped infront of the house door , ring the bell again and again , knowing that no one was at home . I turned out totally weak and knowing it was so miserable , called mother and she's otw to the hospital to visit my cousin sis . IM LIKE OHMYGOD , i was just disappointed in myself . It was my bad to have forgotten to bring that damn house key . I was sweating like a pig ! Walking super weak-ly , went to the library , toilet and waited for Lala , Rara and Zaza .
Met them and went to the 3rd level as usual . This time round , no boys . THANK GOD . lol . I was really ready to study for science but suddenly " there goes my mood " ... Listened to some ___________ songs and thats why , cant help it but i have to listen to it . Saw Fir and friends . My slenger ! Lalalalalalalalalalalala ~ Around 3+ , went off from the library cuz Lala and Zaza wanna met up with their 'boyfriends' . Rara accompanied me to JP to buy something and Sha and Kirawan went off their own way . Rara had to went home and ive got no idea where to go since mother had not come back yet , thought of following Lala and Zaza meet their 'boyfriends' but Sha said to just stay at her house but at the second thought I wanna go studying on my own . And thanks Fir for wanting to accompany me but yeah , Its okay . :D Sat down at a resident's corner near my block , few minutes , opened my sci textbook and close it back . I just cant concentrate cuz when im alone , I will start to think of some 'stuff' .
Had a brilliant idea , went to JP and started to find something for someone . ( insert name's) birthday coming up soon . Thought of doing something , so yeahhhhh . Idk if its gonna be meaningful but im sure its gonna be meaningless for (insert name) . Walked around JP all alone like one no life girl , went in to Harris and there's more than 5 books of Twilight/Robert Pattinson . OHMYGOD . Everything cost more than 100bucks . - Twilight Director's Book . - RP's Annual 2010 Book . - Vampire book . - Robert's __________ Book . Ohhhhhhh , much much more .
Barney , you gotta help me on doing that special present . PLEASE ! Alright people , gotta revise for science now . Toooodles ~
PS : Im having a really miserable life now after that .... MY GOD ! It was a BIG MISTAKE !
"In a relationship, you should'nt think about the future cause its unpredictable. All you need to do is control whats happening now, today and put a smile on their face and hope tomorrow will be better. Nothing last forever but there's things that can last long."
- Quoted from FK .
~ Its gives a great impact on me because Ive just lost someone . We shouldnt have did that . Our hopes are flown away just like that . Yes , its really unpredictable . We knew it .
Its all fate . Im not blaming fate for losing you , Im sure he has his reasons why . We shall wait and see why . Yes , there's things that can last long . I must agree . Why i made up that decision and why im at the state right now its really unpredictable . What we wish for tomorrow might not come thru but we believe , he's fair enough to give us what we wanted . Its never too late for anything . Just put a sincere smile on your face and believe you can catch it . Achieving it may be difficult but with effort , slowly you could and never give up in life . At a point in life , it may be good and another point it may be bad .
Thats why i always say to you , he's testing us . Believe in yourself and Never give up .
firstly , im gonna be busy due to examination . today , first paper was okay lah . not that easy , not that difficult also . up to standard . lol . tomorrow is paper 2 . mygod !
secondly , i wanna thank my dear friends for had comfort me just now . thank you for being there , Rara , Sha , Shud and NatyQa . Thank you .
thirdly , im back to single life . i have my reasons why it ended . only god knews it .
finally , i just want you to know , im still here for you no matter what . im still here to listen to you . still here to hold you if you're falling , still here to give you encouragement , still here to lend you my shoulders if you feel like crying . im still here . no matter what , you still used to be my special one . though its just 11 days , its so meaningful ald . after few months of going thru ups and downs together . our dreams , BRW dinner , everything , i'll treasure it and i promise . just press my hp number and yes , im there to give you a helping hand alright 28th . i'll try my best within my capabality . (:
and to whoever thats taking examination , gooood luck , all the best ! strive your goals . :D
love love love loveeeeeeee ! obstacles obstacles obstacles non stop ! barriers barriers barriers stopping my way from moving on !
yeahhhh , love ? for now , i feared to face relationship problems or consequences . its just that , im not ready and im not strong enough to face it . goooood , help me . shazwan , you leave me breathless . i hate you . wink*
i wanna thank my dearest 'sister' , Audrey Andini Ratna Putri for being so concerned . we have the same interest and problems , OH HOW WONDERFUL ! chat with her about our problems . i dont wanna see you to sad or get hurt alright Audrey . be happy , smile smile smile ! :D
okay okay , its time now ..
Shafiqa - Last Long with K ! Lala - Last Long with I ! Zaza - Upcoming ! Next with J ! Rara - Dont be sad , move on , girl ! ;D NatyQa - Ohhhhhhhhhh , complication ! Best wishes for you . :D Shud - " Relaaaa Ku Setiaaaaaa ... ! " Best wishes babe ;D Myself - Goooooodluck Uh Shekyn ! FS FS ! XD
TAK MUNGKIN KERNA SAYANG . Its gonna be for awhile , Handle it with care . Full concentration . For once . Though being the best , moving on is the perfect idea .
And Dearest , you're so _ _ _ _ _ ! Gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood , 9 months ! ;D
what a day , first it started bad , in the middle it was good then great then to bad again and then worse . whaddahellah !
alright , early in the morning , woke up then received msg from Twinneh , asking me whether Im free because wanna send indonesian friends to the airport or something-something. dang , im super excited for god sake . lol .
met Twinneh and Kirawan under her house, on the roadside cuz we are ald quite late to take MRT so yeah , treat them the cab-ing . lol . halfway thru , the cab breakdownnnnn in the middle of the expressway . i down there act like thats a normal thing altho its the first time . LOL . i wasnt panic at all . LOL . cuz i know , its gonna happen , something bad will happen , what a fact . still its good , we reached airport safely .
dont wanna share so much what happened , though it was fun . really fun kena kacau-ing by that guy . you'll see a picture im with a guy , that guy lah . that guy . whaddahellah ! he was disturbing me all the way . whaddahellah . okay . ya , whatever . forgiven . lol .
okay , let some pictures do the story telling . im tired now . i wanna go to sleeeeeeep !
goodnight now . goodbye .
DISA cutestuff ! I supposed thats Khai's shades .
Gde , Disa , Khai and Farhan .
Pioneerians .
Bogor's and Pioneer's .
Disa , Shekyn , Khai .
The End .
Shazkyn !
@ 12:18 AM
Memandang wajahmu cerah Membuatku tersenyum senang Indah dunia ..
Tentu saja kita pernah Mengalami perbedaan Kita lalui ..
Tapi aku merasa jatuh terlalu dalam cintamu. Ku tak akan berubah Ku tak ingin kau pergi Selamanya ..
Ku kan setia menjagamu Bersama dirimu Sampai nanti akan slalu Bersama dirimu ..
Saat bersamamu kasih Ku merasa bahagia dalam pelukmu ...
OMFGOMOFGOMFGOMFG , THIS SONG REALLY MAKE ME CRY . DAMN . I HATE THIS . and im missing my dearest indonesian friends . i just get to know that Audrey(Subang) love Twilight + ROBERT PATTINSON as well ! awww , god , i miss her , gotta thank her for giving me that cute bookmark .
life has been good . love life has been good as well but only obstacles are coming on my way . gotta face it alright love . be patient and strong . you know what okay . seriously . islynmw !
alright , i gotta go . gotta fetch irritating cousin sister now . upload pictures after exams yeahh . buseey ! ;D
gonna be a short post . alright , so yeah . lifes good . not . love story , goood enough . doing well . lol . okay , tomorrow i'll be having music exam and im ready but not fully prepared yet ! wahhhhhhhh , tomorrow die siaaaaaaaaa . and yes , i really had funn just noww . the number 28th's date ! had not been sleeping properly nowadays , oh dang . hows tmrw ? die . alright , gotta go and sleeeep now . oh damn . i was supposed to upload the past events pictures but looks like im just too tired to upload them , so yeah . next time then . goodbyee !
and to shazkyn , thank you fr the great time just now . :D
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A lady who will go crazy over something thats related to vampires or fangs .
18 May 95 .
Weird . Crazy . Sarcastic .