happiness is coming on my wayyy !
Tuesday, September 29, 2009 @ 7:40 PM
alright , its been suchaaa long time , not really , just a few days back since i last update this dead blog . half way dying . so yeah , busy with school stuff and raya-ing . exams are like a week or so from now . and yeah , DIE . last week was terribly terrible , i had been freaking out , stressing !
damn it . im losing my voice and im still coughing , how am i suppose to perform fr M.E ?
okay yes , yesterday , raya-ed with Usual Crew , Old School and Kaz , was supposed to meet them at 3 but heh , TERover abit , met them straight at Lala's house around 4 . second stop , Sidah's house , third stop , Shud's , forth stop , NatyQa's , fifth , Hazwan's , sixth , my house .
right ? did i left anyone's house ? okay wtva . so yeah , though i still love yesterday . 280909 .
gonna upload pictures soon . hopefully i could , gonna be busy for this 3 weeks .
ohhhhmygoood . those indonesia students . oh yeaaaaaaa , ade hikmahnye kenape aku taknak join . naseb ! after school today was super crazeeey and i dont understand why . off from school , followed Barney to Gek Poh , Macccddd with Wati and Ina as well and did a theory with Barney when Ina and Wati went off . after that , wondered around Gek Poh , from one shop to another shop we walked round and round , finding something to buy but we are not sure what to buy . Barney seems frustrated , so yeah , she was freaking and stressing out. lastly , we went to Prime Market , walked around , crap and did some giler stuff . ( hello , its not like what youre thinking kay ) . atlast , we still dont have any idea what to buy , we became super weird especially Barney and im super hyper , i was laughing WITHOUT any reason . omfg . i felt so crazeeey just now . Barney almost smack me because of my craziness , she's there feeling frustrated , im there , laughing like wth but we did have funn releasing stress in a market. -.-'
aww , i guess , he make my day . yeaaaaaaaaaa , love .
at the end of my love story , ive forgotten about you . and you , you're moving on , so do you and i have my reasons why i chose you okay . now , im left with no question mark and there goes a exclamation mark . and love , we'll go thru every obstacles , ups and downs together ? okays . haaaaaaaaa !
new love , new laughter , new life maybe ? :D
Labels: its much clearer now . its an unknown relationship .
Stupid Asshole .
Wednesday, September 23, 2009 @ 10:44 PM
At the other point , life was simply miserable ..
I just asked forgiveness from mother few days back and then just now i accidentally shout at her because of that f**king stupid idiotic cousin sister that doesnt want to do her homework . She was super fcuking stubborn , wahlao . Heart pain like **** because of her , I was rude towards my mother . Whaddahellah . Little kid , I think its better if you go back to your parents eh . Suro dier ajar siket , ape tu sopan , dah bagos orang nk ajar , perangai lagi dgn aku . Mcm ______ .
Whatever it is , Im happy that Farhan and Faizal was in to the next round .
And yes , Shazwan , CHEERRRR UP !
Dont sad sad , tmrw can talk okays . :D
Chill out . Goodbye .
RANDOM .
Monday, September 21, 2009 @ 4:00 PM
My dear Muslim friends, hows your day on the first day of raya ? LOL .
Okays , I did a quiz on FB , random cuz one of my friend sent it to me , so i did it .
And yes , just read thru ..
" What Kind Of Boyfriend Will You Have ? "
Answer : The Mature One .
He will be there whenever you're in trouble or need help, sorting out every problem for you and making sure you will always be happy. You can discuss your problems with him and will always listen to every word you have to say.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW , I WISH . *sigh*
Alright , random yea , ive got no idea what to update , so yeah , at the end , this is what i thought of posting .
Think Think Think !
Alright , Gooooooooooodbye . :D
Keep Smiling Yeaaaaaaa !
Labels: confusing much .
Selamat Hari Raya Oi !
Sunday, September 20, 2009 @ 12:04 AM
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN .
Shekyn disini ingin meminta ampun kepade sesiape pon , biarpun kesalahan yang kecik ape lagi yang besar . Maafkan lah Shekyn . Semoge kamu semue berbahagie di samping keluarga yang tersayang .
This is random okay , Sekali sekale aku cakap mcm gini . Haaaaaa . Yes , $$ Kachinggg $$ !
Gonna curl hair today ! Its 20th of Sep and its 12:12 now on my clock . Weeeeeeeee ~
Takecare all .
Sincerely ,
Shekyn Ahmad . :D
Labels: this is random . lollism .
life's great .
Friday, September 18, 2009 @ 8:48 PM
im back yes , im back ! hahaaaaaaaaa . life has been good . *thumbs up*
school was fine , lessons was dotdotdot , you know what i mean . currently , praticing something with Twinneh's guit , chatting with Rara , Shzwn and Roy . otp with Shzwn , OH , damn it . he's just simply hyper and crazeyy tonight . ive got no idea and i dont wanna know . and yes , thank you so much for that drawing okay . ;D
so yeah , i really cant believe that 2 more days to HARI RAYAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !
seriously , its like normal days for me but life is changing from bad to good . hows that ?
im really gonna change for the better of course ! :D
life changingggg , hopefully .
till here aye , buseeeey ayee . heeeees . toodles ~
Labels: im gonna catch it man ;D, my ambition
triple L .
Wednesday, September 16, 2009 @ 8:52 PM
i realised , ive been walking around in circles , this cycle . thats why things come and go and those same things happened but with different reasons . so now ...
im finding my way out , to start everything new , new life , new love , new laughter . haa !i cant go on this way . i woke up from my sleep and felt fine , felt everything has settled down although the truth its not there yet . so yeah ...
( my own ugly drawing )
( my own ugly drawing )
im gonna stop , doing the usual things . im gonna open my heart for new things . im gonna explore my outside world and get them . gonna open my heart for new people , new love . :D
anyone happy ? lol . and yes , my motive saying this , is to stop ...
loving him . im gonna stop loving him like how i used to , i cant do this any longer , i can face it anymore . im gonna really really start a new fresh love . someone really gotta be my needle and thread , heh . :D ( this is my own ugly drawing ) .
so you , dont turn back , in anyway , we cant be like how we used to .
gonna let everything go now . not a single tear for you now .
lets go on and never keep feelings burned .
im not being sarcastic here , for once , this is real . (lol) .
seeeeeeeeeee people , im moving on , really !
support me aye , tysm , ily . heh .
new life , new love , new laughter . heh .
thats all for my life , now im gonna talk about friends .
alright , UC .
do you ladies realised , we've been facing problems and this is a cycle .
we're all like cracking and breaking about something , what isit about again ?
we're all going our own way now and we doesnt seem care to form back , we've been only hoping , UC wont break but there's no sincerity , honesty when we're like settling this thing . its like there's no initiative . everything goes very evil stuffey . how sad . i wanna this problem to settle by saturday , i dont careee . any consequences , let us face it okay . lets give in and give out . alright , be fair and square . i will be wherever , helping out .
USUAL CREW , be back home man . find the door , we've been walking around circles , lets go out from that circle and BRING THE SPIRIT OF UC BACK , please ler .
raya nak dekat dok . cepat baek-baek eh ? tysm . ily eh . okay . :D
And yes , Shzwn has been so random today , whats wrong with you , man ? Heh .
Okay . Nevermind .
ツ Shazwan says:
yeah
do you know that you make me feel on top of the world?
shekyn ahmad says:
how come ?
i mean , why ?
ツ Shazwan says:
you make me smile even we are not attached
and I'm super happy
shekyn ahmad says:
how come seh ?
weird .
NEW LIFE , NEW LOVE , NEW LAUGHTER , BABY ! :D
Labels: suria hatiku ;
its alright , its okay !
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 @ 10:26 PM
my previous post was saddening , so yeah . let me just post something for blog readers to read alright . so yeah , school was AWE to the SOME . AWESOME ! :D
kay , not the lessons but something else i supposed . so yeah , after sch went to the library and yeah , we were super noisy , the ladies UC of course . hahaaaa . okay . whatever .
back at home was a disaster . ohman , felt like H E L L . fasting month this year , full of problems man . dugaan puase . ive been enduring and im gonna end this thing very the soon .
so online and chat with my ex-es , solihin , rara and fir , roy and whoever . rara's friend wanna get to know me , whaddaaaahellahhh ! still wanna meet me tmrw , woah . G&D ! siannnnnn . after one , another one . wlao . die man die ! so yeah , my mood went dowwnnn a few hours back but it was for awhile , because Fir cheered me upp ! my funny stuff . lol . alrighteyy .
gonna stop here , lets see what happened tmrw . okays . :D
its alright , its okay if you dont wanna talk to me . im fine with it .
for the one i love .
@ 6:13 PM
Ive been thinking about my lovelife . For now , its still unstable . Its like confusing because I didnt get much answers . How should I react , seriously . I cant love all . Gotta be honest , there's only one person I gotta love and yes , I can like many .
I can like many but I can only love one . So do you and like now , this heart , this love keeps burning for you . I dont know why but its hard to get over you , yeah ?
Ive tried to move on , ive tried , Ive succeeded but not fully yet . Now , you're back in my heart .
I realised , I cant love anyone like how i loved you . You see , love cant be forced . My love for him comes naturally not forced . Its not that i forced myself to love him , It comes naturally .
Yeah , i know . Im gonna hurt someone but I cant forced myself to love that someone when Im not in love with them .
Boy , this is so hard . Its hard to understand you now . My friends told me , yeah , you cant love me like how you used to . I knew that . But why ? Why is it so hard , you told me you loved me , you told me also , youre confused with your own feelings but i just dont understand you . Its hard . I need an explanation , I need an answer . To move on or not . I cant keep waiting .
Silently , we're in love but ... ?
Sometimes , you gotta let your loved ones go and be happy for them if they are happy being with someone else ...
You know who you are , hopefully :
We've been wondering around . Its been months . Ive tried to move on without you but you still come back in this heart . Why isnt this love fading , why is it still strong . You told me , you liked/loved me but I need an answer . An explanation . Pls , dont keep this love empty . I dont want to clap with one hand . I wanna clap with two hands , with you . Though , its gonna be hard . Whatever yr decision gonna be like , Im gonna accept it , im willing to face it . Even if you're in love but its not with me , any longer . Dont keep this hanging . Its been months . Dont make it a year , cause a year is coming up in 3 months . 041209 .
S.J :
I knw ive hurt you . This is not what i wanted . I never want to hurt you . I knw you've been there for me when im feeling good or bad . Ups and downs in my life . You were always there .
I still cant find reasons why . This is gonna be hard . Im sorry , but this is not the ending .
Labels: iwwwst . i still need ya man . i want to start all over .
whadaaa monday !
Monday, September 14, 2009 @ 3:40 PM
helloh . whadda monday . so siann , so tiring siaaa . alright , just finished reading my past tags on myflashbox . walao . so many sweet/bitter memories . omg . especially some parts and also just started reading my past posts , let me see , hmm .. lol . so yeah , school was okay , lessons was quite interesting today , Tok Yem was super hyper today . he crapped alot . lol .
i love my bag , thanks to twinneh . lol . sabar aye , lagi 1 week jer . lol . after sch , thought of going to the library with Lala and whoever but was cancelled cause i think , im too tired to move around , so yea . went to Gek Poh for awhile to top up thru the phone but i only topped up $2 . haha . wait lah later later then i top up the usual amount . heh . so yeah , texted Shzwn , my BGF . whatever eh ShazKyn . :D he called me , we talked for awhile but yeah , he wanna go lepak . whatever eh mat . lol . chill aye , kidding jer .
and yes , mother told me that my baju for raya this year will be green but what i received from aunty was green and pink and im like , OH , PINK AGAIN this year ? so i asked mother , why was there pink also , she said [ insert reasons ] . so yeah , i just nodded and walked away .
yesterday night , sister was finding baju for the first day of raya , so yeah , she searched at mum's wardrobe and walked out to the living rm and asked me , " what colour baju are you gonna be using for the first day , green or pink ? " , i answered , " green ? " .
so she asked me whether she could try on my pink , i said " yes , go ahead " . but mother said , " you dont have any baju this yr ? the past yrs baju ? " , and she answered , thought of using something something but [ insert reasons ] . she said again to mother , " alah , let me try on uh , anyway , shikin is sensitive to pink abit what . " , and im like , " oh yeah , maybe . " and i gave them the -.-' face . and kept quite . the end .
so yeah , thats the story about my pink baju kurung . and yes , about my sister as well . thanks ah sis , you know me quite well . :D this is about something , so yeah , if anyone of you doesnt understand , its okay . hahaaa . :D
lets see what my past post talks about , this is interesting . lol . alright . till here aye .
too the less !
ARE THEY BACK YET ?
whadda weekend .
Sunday, September 13, 2009 @ 5:06 PM
hello everyone . :D
whadda tiring weekend . urgh ! (yawns) . lemme just share about what happened yesterday and today . oh , suckish much uh ? so yeah , yesterday , had iftar and also celebration on my aunty's bdae that falls on 090909 . cool or what ? . uncles , aunties , cousin sister/brothers gathered at my house to have somekind of partey . so yea , they gathered around 6+ and after breakfast , some of the older ones went for terawih . around 10 , my head/brain started to spin , bounced until i felt like fainting , i cant stand or sit for a long time or else , my head will spin like wth .
had a suprise partey for aunty , lol . after cutting cake session , i sat down , felt like anytime i can be sent to the hospital . cousins , aunties and uncles went back around 12am when im ald super sleepy and my head still spinning , bouncing as if someone is jumping on my head .
woke up for sahur , really and seriously , head still spinning and since i dont have any appetite to eat anything so i just drink , then , went back to rest waiting fr father call for prayers . seriously , i had hard time praying , my head hurt alot ! after prayers , replied SHZWN's msg and go to sleep . for the very FIRST TIME in history , i woke up at 3pm+++ today . i guess , its because i ate a very very strong medicine last night and i just cant get up so early , forced myself to wake up and so , right now . im here , posting and replying msges to SHZWN's .
and yes, my prepaid is still low . using someone else's hp to reply some msges .
so yeah , whadda weekend . currently , finishing my schoolwork with the 'S' so its schoolworkS .
die man die !
alright , gotta stop hereee .
toodles peeepos ! :D
Labels: and im so sick of ...
im gonna die soon if this goes on .
Thursday, September 10, 2009 @ 9:40 PM
woahhhhhhh , must share with you guys, ladies and you know who . what happened earlier part of the day was that , i gotta babysit my nephew and nieces like omfg . the whole day , i cant even do a work . they played with CDs , tissues , many more . tissues all around the house , styrofoam(?) from bears all out , CD's , those clothes peg all around the house . OMG . lastly , i gotta sweep the floor but they started it again , i gave up , i sat down and webcam + chatting . i bathed them , woah , played water , i got wet . -.-'
during breakfast , sister in law and brother came to fetch those kiddos . while eating , sister in law compliment that im getting thinner . then , they teased me saying that all this while , i took care of them and im getting thinner , LOL , thinner sgt -.-' . mother praised me infront of siblings . aww . haha . whatever and yes , i got sick because of my dear smallest niece , she was sick and she kept on sneezing and coughed on me , last-last , i kena . woah !
my throat doesnt feels right , like loyar like that , not sore throat , just loyar , cold and cough . omg . bad stuffey ! i dont care , i wanna go out . in this whole week , i only go out for like two days . woah siaaaa . wth ! i cant go out because gotta babysit them . im losing my voice , im losing my voice !! oh mannnnnnnn . this suck !
alright . gonna stop here . im missing some ppl . omg .
Ik wil niet dat je meer liefde. Ik wil niet, hoewel ik nog steeds je liefde. Ik wil gewoon niet meer te krijgen kwetsen. its like, we zijn in de liefde maar we handelen als er niets. Ik weet het, ik kan het niet nemen dit. Dit is raar. Ik wil niet dat je niet meer liefde. Ik wil je laten gaan, zodat je van iemand anders. hoewel mijn beslissing gonna be hard voor mij moeilijk om je te vergeten. maar im al op het punt van opgeven. Ik kan dit niet langer nemen. zijn al negen maanden! geenszins.
Labels: terrifying-ly terrible .
090909 <3
Tuesday, September 8, 2009 @ 8:45 PM
hello . right . my second post fr today . yes , its 8:46pm on my clock and im listening to " Setia Menanti " by Shahridzuan . (;
now im totally free from my nieces , they are ald otw back home . safely yeah ?
ohmy , i wanna go out tmrw , i dont give a damn . alright mother ? thanks .
i dont wanna babysit tmrw , please . tysm . i had enough today and im tired and retired .
i must say this that tonight is sucha dead , dull , silent night . im inside my dark room , sitting , facing this laptop like omg . im updating just to say , I LOVE TOMORROW'S DATE !
09092009 ! omgomgomg .
i realised this few weeks , many ppl facing love problems , breaking up , this and that .
hopefully i dont have to heartbreak this few months . i had enough the past months .
seriously . haha . alright , i shall stop here , yeah . and im gonna post msges for some ppl .
Shazwan :
Im glad you let it out tonight . How sarcastic you could be otp, idk . But what i know , Im the one being sarcastic otp just now . As what you said , we dont know whats fated in our future .
Lets just continue this way . Alright . Thank you so much, for everything .
Your love , care and concern . Yr words otp really touches my heart . Im just too speechless thats why i kept on giggling and said " alright " . My word , you knew it . I wish you all the best in everything you do and yes , a reminder , extra care okay . *wink* :D
28 Aug kan Wan ? Yes , correct . I remember , bcos on the 29 you . You know I know . ^_^
Ich Liebe Dich , Best Guy Friend .
Ex-amor :
Everything is much clearer now . Whatever you said , are just words, not really from yr heart , you're just putting up an act just to reassured this heart of mine . why ? must i hate you for doing that ? no , pls .
i dont want this okay . though you'll never know im referring this msg to you .
Merci pour tout, ex-amour.
vous ne saurez jamais ce sentiment de la mienne, vous ne comprendrez jamais, vous ne saurez jamais ce que tu voulais moi pendant tout ce temps. je t'aime.
And my love life , ended up this way . Im happy that it all ended up good . Not really with a question mark . Im glad . And a reminder , my current BGF , is the best , SHZWN .
xoxo .
Labels: listening to yr voice really set my life back to normal .
oh , baby sitter .
@ 9:46 AM
omg , what a terrible morning/day .
was suppose to go out studying with UC and Old School later on but i dont think i can go and i swear that is _________ . why ? mother wont let me go out bcos i gotta takecare of my niece(?) yeah . my dear niece dont wanna go to anyone else except for me and that is so dotdotdot .
my dear niece is sick right now and i gotta babysit her . -.-'
showed her some stupid cartoon shows and she laughed , luckily !
she kept on talking in her own language and i dont understand a single thing she's talking !
damn it ! she's playing with her purple hippo bear now . haha . lol . and im running out of ideas of what to say . I DONT CARE , I WANNA GO OUT TODAY ! please, mother ?
Take Note : Look at what they are doing and the expression of their faces . (:
Aneeqa Aizura , Anieq Altaqiey & Ashalyn Aqiesya .
what this things tell me now ?
Monday, September 7, 2009 @ 12:18 PM
im updating for the sake of those ppl that wants me to update this almost dead blog .
yeah , life had been speechless ~ too much suprises till i didnt realised its just a for awhile game .
love story , oh , good and bad .
For SHZWN :
being the faithful one now . im thankful that i have you in my life now . although i didnt really reply yr msges , answer yr call but you've tried yr best and hopefully , you understand what ive told you all this while till i think , you get bored bcos you really understand what im trying to say . right , tysm shzwn . its up to you , yeah . (:
i appreciate much that im bidadari hatimu . (:
lastly to you , ex-amor . though you might not know im talking about you but yeah , wtva .
people , the language is in spanish .
im confundido, ¿qué quiere decir cuando dice que tiene sentimientos por mí. IM también confundido por mis propios sentimientos si todavía te amo o qué. pero ahora, cuando me mostró que usted no me importa, me sentí como renunciar a ti. Cuando me desperté de mi sueño, yo siempre pienso en ti Y no sé por qué tengo que pensar en ti cuando tú no eres nada en mi vida. No sé lo que significaba para mí. en serio, qué ahora?
- even if anyone translate this msg to english language , the english thats given might not be that right/true.
LASTLY , TO MY SPECIAL ONES ;
I SWEAR , I MISS USUAL CREW , lets go out manzsx !
This week aye ! YOKS !
now , im off on my own way .
byeeeeee blog readers . :D
loving it .
Saturday, September 5, 2009 @ 9:44 PM
im back posting , there's someone who really wants me to update , so yeah . right , so in the morning , went fr CPR course , AwanSky and myself . HAHAH . crap man ! yeah , as what he's supposed to do was to takecare of me . hahah . yeah , he did though . lol . i find the practical test is easier than the theory test , seriously . i did a retest on the theory test . lol . my bad . around 120 ald otw back home with Awan . Its like so awkward cos its only the both of us . My friends know what i meant , hopefully . HEH . Reached home played tic tac toe with cuzzin sis , i was resting and she asked me to play tic tac toe with her , wth . just played for entertainment . i asked her to go away after im tired of playing that stupid game . lol . rest and when i realised , i woke up with a sudden shocking situation again and my hp was ringing , still sticking on my palms . 3 msges , 1 miss call and its ald 4+pm . replied those msges and went to bathe . whatever more . its time to breakfastttt ! wheeeeee ~ YEAH , having a big feast . mother cooked alot since grandmas , brother in law, brother aiz and brother zul's friend came . lol . right , PREPAID LOW LIAO !
alright , i'll stop here .
Labels: and im back to the past .
when life gets bad ...
Tuesday, September 1, 2009 @ 10:08 PM
but im okay with him ald . so yeaa . he understands why , hopefully .
we are still going thru as usual . still , im single . single is freedom man .
lol , random-ness . right , life has been fine . just fine . -.-'
school has been , urgh ! lol . my weekends was great . flyyyyyy kites .
monday was sucha terrible , horrible day , i swear , i hate that day .
tues , sucha boring , cold , tiring day . i swear , i dont like that day also .
today , urhm , bad bad bad ! omg , life is going bad againnnnnnn .
siann . okay lah , till here blog readers .
its been a year plus and im still missing something . felt as if im missing something in this current life . seriously . its still hard for me to forget everything that we had gone thru . its a great impact in my heart and you , being my greatest ex . its ever hard to forget you . although ppl may thought its just for awhile , but that moment im with you , true happiness really showed up in my life . my friends told me , i was the happiest girl during that time and yes , i agreed .
it took me more than 5 months to get over you and now , you're here all over again , reburning the love that ive been trying to brush it off . though , its still kindda hard . although again , ive gone thru hardships and broken hearts , tears with some other guys , you never ever had faded from this heart . why are you so hard to forget ? even if you make me hate you , those love came back . why ? though i know , you are my past . i have to get over everything , now and then .
SOMEBODY FEELS JEALOUS ! ;D
toodles ~ !
