Gotta get there with you .

im really sick of life now .

Wednesday, February 4, 2009 @ 6:46 PM

how does it feels , when a guy/lady who actually came to your life without you expecting anything and every moment you spend with him/her , he/she shines you like making you feel as if you are really loved and make you to forget your bitter memories with your ex [when you cant forget about your ex] and you feel really great when you are spending your time with the guy/lady without knowing how times fly very fast and its the end of the day between you and him/her . when you both actually get to know that you both are actually in love with each other , planning to be together but its just not right yet and there , you speaked out something that might be the fact between you and him/her , and the day you actually speaked out those facts , he just dissapear from your life that moment when you tell out . how hurtful can it be , when the person you love , who actually shines your life just left you like that because of certain reasons that you have but he/she wont understand or just ignore as if he/she understands it . but left you just like that without any explanation why he/she just left you like that . he/she also said some sentence or words which you dont wish them to say it but they actually said it . although its your fate between you and him/her not to be together , but why after all what happened , he/she texted you without you expecting and said that somebody else wants to get to know you , when you're still loving him/her . how bad can it be ?
after all that , you're even having friends & some personal problems . again , how bad can it be ?
life are just unfair at times . but we just gotta accept the fate that was given to us . yeah ?

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ohmyfreakingay . days have been BAD enough for me . stewwwpit .
im just so tired , handling with my friends behaviour or attitude just makes me giving up life . seriously . its stewpit . oh , must i actually act im fine in school or wherever , must i laugh when actually its not funny to me ?
oh , im just so sarcastic this days and i hate it . when i dont talk or wtva , ppl say this and that . they just dont have a heart to think , to feel for somebody else . why just cant we actually forgive that someone that has ald made a mistake & just go on life , forget what happened and look to the future . why are we still looking at the past ? why didnt you guys put yourself in someone else shoe , their life . what if you are in their situation , im sure you will feel the same way . how it hurts . im always wishing , that every single of my friends , could actually gather back together and i can be the happiest girl . too bad , im the saddest girl ever . single , friends problem , in a relationship , boyfriend's problem . please have abit of heart my dear friends . im sicked and tired of all this . i may look so fine outside but im so not inside . its very weird and complicated to understand my situation now , because no one knows what im facing or thinking about now . when someone ask me , whats wrong , she/he is just not the right person to talk to . another thing is that , 'that' thing is just ghost-ing me everywhere i go , i kept on thinking about him or wtva , received the saddest news this week that i didnt expect it to happen , but yeah . FATE YEAH ? just for me to actually hate him , but i just cant hate him . its difficult .
just not my luck . its just fate & concidence . you are just being UNreasonable , friends . think what you've done , i just cant say a thing . its just one idiotic problematic thing that made you guys think that way . really UNreasonable .
i just cant take any longer now . ive done so many things without any appreciation and i dont see the point , of me being good to ppl . seriously , i just wanna dissapear from your eyes . i dont want you to see me no more .
fate & coincidence , i had enough .

now , after all , you said that , how it hurts me , you wont know . how bad can it be ? seriously .