Gotta get there with you .

( there is a backup singer , but its not me . its one of the didifiers . lol . she's taking this video . so yeah . lol . she sounds like me . haha ! )

, today was greatt ! skewl having evacuation exercise and total defence day on this coming sunday . heh ! :D it was great but he sad thing was that , i cant do the first aid but i have to like calm down the casualties - spelling error ? , and yeah , after that , was suppose to have PW but Mr Subas allow the whole skewl to go back earlier , around 1210 we are release from skewl bcoz we behaved ourselves during the exercise . haha . baek kan ? lol . and after skewl , go home , siaping for cca and sha came to my hse , bcoz of something . heh . private lah kans . and reached skewl 15 mins late for cca , but luckily , we are not that late , friends are still around . heh . lol . and off , off to a class and we have our theory test on HAZMAT , i passed . naseb . =.=' , its like after having a lesson on HAZMAT and straight away have our test . haha . baek kan . and after that test , Sha , Sidah , Rusydi and me have to hold back for a while to finish our clove hitch test . dol . and the rest do footdrills . hehh ! and , after that , we still need to go down and do our foordrills but for me i just do a few minutes . haha . and we gotta fun the parade square , 3 rounds with full uni , its tiring , okay ! with boots on , how heavy can that be ? without stopping ? dol kan ? ergh ! you know whats the reason abt , bcoz our senior cant behave himself inside the squad . then as usual , one for all , all for one . everyone need to do the running and marching 3 rounds with full uni , dumb !
after that , off to gek poh , Sha & me decided to go Mac but idk why , Sha feel like eating KFC , so off to KFC , and yeahhhh . SHA , YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED THERE RIGHT ?
haha . my senior , ohmy . i really cant reveal this thing . haha . siakkk !
and aku di dolat keraner ckp sedemikian kpd tarun . haiyah . dol ! siakkkk !
okay , nvrmind. heh . anything , may ask sha . haha . siak !
haiyah , aku ader calon valents , tapi insyallah aku tk TERterima . lol . siak . okay sha .
idk . lol . damn it . dol . siak . idk what to say . and yes . till here . bye . :D

haha . lol .

Thursday, February 12, 2009 @ 6:35 PM

yaw !

lol . okay . yesterday & today was good and bad . haha . okay , yes . abt yesterday , i only like the english enrichment part , sial , aku kene jadi the mom , and anak jadi bapok ? siak . but mr yazid chose me to become the mom and i guess , he have his reasons why . i guess , i know why . :D
today , was super boring , had my malay test . siak , i didnt complete 2 qn . haiyah ! haha . siak . short cut , after skewl , sha & me went jp and i met 2 guys which i think , they look super familiar , i guess , a guy i get to know from the net and they were looking me the same way , one of them , hiding his face . HAHHAA .
after that , we bought the cute water bottle , with pooh on it . hee . mine is grey colour and sha was purple/green like that ? then off home .
now , from 4+ , till now , still chatting wit troy , haha . cutestuff ! :D
im excited abt tmrw , having evacuation exercise in skewl . haha !
:D
okay , till here . wanna go on chatting with troy . :D
bye .

random/untitled.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009 @ 6:11 PM

im super bored.
skewl sucks alot.
lessons super boring.
im doing my stupid hw.
im tired listening to all this.
you made me remember those times.
im still not over you.
lala, sha attached. last long friends. :D
im super sleepy.
i wanna take a nap.
im done. bye.

haha . okay , crap !

Monday, February 9, 2009 @ 4:54 PM

ROBERT PATTINSON<3
he just makes me smile . when i looked at him .

hello ! :D

last few days was kind off fun (?) , my aunt from johor came to my hse , to stay , for a week , because this weekend , my cousin brother getting married . and , yeah , many things happened yesterday . a qn in my mind now , " why are there so many 'clones' ? " . you see , ive got so many things to investigate now because so many things that makes me to invest them . so many things .
haha . its weird i know , but i just gotta do this . and yes , skewl was as usual , first period was EL , we did newspaper article, after that, having history , damn it . i hate today's hist . after recess was MT , serious shit , that tok yem . =.=" after that was maths , omggg , that mr kat , talked and craps alot , his super irritating today , haha . shikin is being evil today , kacau2 mr kat , but its not that evil as what you think yeah , dier kacau aku , aku kacau balek , lol . irritating nk mapos . erghh !
after that was CE , gotta do wtva stewpit stuff , ergh . i hate it . maths alot of qns to do , HW ! damn . after skewl , met my junior , adika , haha . and , we walked off to gek poh , with Sha , Nabila , Elyna and Sidah , but Sidah gotta go to jp . go yeah lah kan ? Adika kept on kacau-ing Nabila and she kept on melata-ing . haha . funny man , seriously . lolololol . haha . and yes . let me just figure out something . hmm ...

ShafiQa's - Mr A .
Nabila's - Mr A . (take note : they dont share the same guy , its 2 diff guys okay. lol.)
Rasidah's - ?
NatyQa's - Mr S .
Myself - Mr (insert alphabet) . :D

kay , till here . bye ~ :D

aku disini menanti , menahan sebak dihati . mengharap belas simpati , kian lama menyepi , hampa berdiam diri .
tiada lagi air mata , untuk membilang duka , tiada lagi bahasa , untuk meluahkan rasa . semuanya hampa dusta .
sampai bila aku ditampi , sampai bila aku dilukai , sampai bila aku begini , sampai bila aku diuji ,
sampai bila diri ini gantung tidak bertali ...

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Saturday, February 7, 2009 @ 11:31 PM

hello wello ! :D

okay , just finished celeb my sis bdae . oh man , im sleeeeeeeeepy man !
having headache . idk why . haha . today , many things / people crappp alot .
haha . seriously . for the very first time in history , i actually chatted with my sister otp . lol . CHATTED okay .
anw , HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER TUTTY ! :D
supposely , i wanted to share many stories but my ive forgotten everything what happened today . my memory super full and abit also i cant remember what happened , maybe abit uh . haiyah , im thinking too much this days and i easily forget things . haiyah . some more not enough sleep . thats why im super sleepy . kay , my mind stop working and i cant remember a thing now .
and yeah , it seems that this few days , i kept on listening & watching ghost stories , whats with ghost man ? stupid siak . lol . xD
going out with Sha , Azizi & his friend i guess ?
Celebrating his bdae lahh kann . haiyah .
kay , bye .

i know its lame , so just keep quite ! lolzsx .

Friday, February 6, 2009 @ 8:03 PM

hello . assalamualaikum . waa'laikumsalam . (:

today , as usual . first period having science lssn & the first lesson ald make me gedheboooosh !
if you know what i mean . aku redflag ~ without expecting , ader spore map pat skirt aku . siak btol .
i didnt expect to redflag in the morning , when im doing my sci test . steewwwppss !
haha . okay . back . after do some work , i was scared lah kan , i dont want another spore map . heh ! okay , after that was MT , recess time , maths & home econs .
For the very first time in history , this yr , Maths lesson was interesting . That Mr Kat ehhhhhhh .
Mepsssssss siak ! He kept on slank-ing his words when he speaks . Its irritating . okay .
hahaha . Mr Kat called out any name that was in his mind and FATIMAH came out and in a sudden Hashikin was flashback-ing about the ghost that was told by a teacher and she remembered abt Fatimah Rockers , if you know what i meant . (:
She said , what if the 'girl' was under the table and all . we are inside the AVA Theatre anw .
and , Farhan , Rasidah , NatyQa and Me , started to flashback-ing and all . Scaring each other , making those voices . haha . and yes , i know , that the voices i made sounded real and scary .
haha . lol . i was pushed by NatyQa because i scared her and i hit my bag . It was hard okay , if my bag wasnt there , i think , i hit the wooden chair and surely , my head will be like lebam now . heh !
Rasidah saw a book 2 tables away from our desk and and i said ....
Shekyn : aiiyooooh ~ dier tgh bace buku lahh . jgn kacau . nanti dier mrh . (just to scared them)
Hashikin & NatyQa : oieeee , jgn lah . kau ni . ( hahahah ! )
Farhan took the book .
Shekyn : eh , jgn amek lah . nanti dier mrh , nanti kau mati siak . dier kacau kau smue . aiyohh !
they laughed and kept on scaring each other . I know its lameeee but its fun to be childish at times yeah ? hahahaha . after a few minutes , Rasidah wanted to say something but she just cant say a thing . After a while , she said that Farhan's thumb & middle finger had blood , as if somebody just bite or something and i looked at his fingers , its true and the blood was quite scary . eeeeeeer .
and myself flashed back about what i said a few minutes ago .
" eh , jgn amek lah . nanti dier mrh , nanti kau mati siak . dier kacau kau smue . aiyohh ! "
as , most of my friends said that my mulot masin right , usually what i said actually happened and abt Farhan's thinggy , its like again true ? haha . lol . crap .
the thing is that , he wasnt doing anything , except for listening to Mr Kat crappy words and suddenly when he looked at his fingers , 2 fingers were blooded . haha . whats with my eng ? lol .
i mean , its like ... ? haha . okay . idk what to say , but what i said always will happened .
and im kind off afraid to say anything now . hahs ! im stepping to reality and reality , anything is possible right ? lol . kay , im not telling there's a ghost in that room but , everywhere we go there is always those evil spiritual . yeah ? syaitan , kann ? lol . so yeah , lets just forget abt it . lol .
i know , its lame , and Rasidah , NatyQa , Hashikin , Farhan & myself was shocked of what happened to Farhan . seriously . lol . okay , back . i know this is lame , but its scary okay .
lets have some common sense , if he even hit the table or something , but why must both the thumbs and middle finger that have bloods ? hmmm , wierd siak . but nvrmind . lets just pray all thise ghost doesnt exist . it doesnt exist lah but those syaitans made those ghosts . stewpit siakk .
lol . okay , yes . i wanna watch bangku kosong (again) tonight . heh !
idk , whats my day gonna be like for the next few days . but i think , its gonna be another boring , stewpit day . (:
bye .

stuupidddddddddd !

Thursday, February 5, 2009 @ 5:57 PM

hey.

haiyahh . another better day than yesterday but still , stewpit and boring and no fun day . day started good , since i listen to the radio and there is the song i wanted to listen to by Didicazli singing his latest song Impianku .
In the morning , listening to Didi's song , good thing yeah ?
Reached skewl , okay lah . BUT , too bad , Hazwan just made my day abit booosh . HE IS SUPERFREAKINGFCUKING IRRITATING !
During science class , he irritate me , tapping my shoulder with his pen so hard , its PAINFUL okay ! He kept on calling me , seriously . dummy ass . the whole hour till the next lesson , he irritate me . ergh ! wthwth . after that , he kept on saying sorry , like one stewpit dummy kid , saying sorry . ' shikin , sorry uh ' , shikin , aku mintak maaf ah ' , ' shikin , maafkan aku ' . ergh . reached class for the next lesson , just to make him stop saying SORRY , i turned and shout in his face . ' AKU MAAFKAN KAU OKAY ' . and yes , for once , i felt my anger could actually kewl down since i shouted , but he still go on , how irritating can it be ?
but after teacher walked in , he stopped , thank god !
if he didnt stop , im sure , i can actually be brought to the mental hospital siak .
bdow nyer anak . ish ! and he even cant stop saying _____ name . wlao . im trying to forget that guy , hazwan kept on reminding , said this and that . thats why im sooo irritated . today , was suppose to do alotttt of work , i gotta finish my project work , home econ hw , iron my NCDCC uniform , polish my boots , finish my drama scripts . haiyah !! damn damn .
nothing better, just became worst-er .
anw , thanks sha for listening to my stories yesterday .
but thats not even half of the my problems . there is much more , too bad , i cant tell . thanks for trying to understand me . (:

bye .

im really sick of life now .

Wednesday, February 4, 2009 @ 6:46 PM

how does it feels , when a guy/lady who actually came to your life without you expecting anything and every moment you spend with him/her , he/she shines you like making you feel as if you are really loved and make you to forget your bitter memories with your ex [when you cant forget about your ex] and you feel really great when you are spending your time with the guy/lady without knowing how times fly very fast and its the end of the day between you and him/her . when you both actually get to know that you both are actually in love with each other , planning to be together but its just not right yet and there , you speaked out something that might be the fact between you and him/her , and the day you actually speaked out those facts , he just dissapear from your life that moment when you tell out . how hurtful can it be , when the person you love , who actually shines your life just left you like that because of certain reasons that you have but he/she wont understand or just ignore as if he/she understands it . but left you just like that without any explanation why he/she just left you like that . he/she also said some sentence or words which you dont wish them to say it but they actually said it . although its your fate between you and him/her not to be together , but why after all what happened , he/she texted you without you expecting and said that somebody else wants to get to know you , when you're still loving him/her . how bad can it be ?
after all that , you're even having friends & some personal problems . again , how bad can it be ?
life are just unfair at times . but we just gotta accept the fate that was given to us . yeah ?

-

ohmyfreakingay . days have been BAD enough for me . stewwwpit .
im just so tired , handling with my friends behaviour or attitude just makes me giving up life . seriously . its stewpit . oh , must i actually act im fine in school or wherever , must i laugh when actually its not funny to me ?
oh , im just so sarcastic this days and i hate it . when i dont talk or wtva , ppl say this and that . they just dont have a heart to think , to feel for somebody else . why just cant we actually forgive that someone that has ald made a mistake & just go on life , forget what happened and look to the future . why are we still looking at the past ? why didnt you guys put yourself in someone else shoe , their life . what if you are in their situation , im sure you will feel the same way . how it hurts . im always wishing , that every single of my friends , could actually gather back together and i can be the happiest girl . too bad , im the saddest girl ever . single , friends problem , in a relationship , boyfriend's problem . please have abit of heart my dear friends . im sicked and tired of all this . i may look so fine outside but im so not inside . its very weird and complicated to understand my situation now , because no one knows what im facing or thinking about now . when someone ask me , whats wrong , she/he is just not the right person to talk to . another thing is that , 'that' thing is just ghost-ing me everywhere i go , i kept on thinking about him or wtva , received the saddest news this week that i didnt expect it to happen , but yeah . FATE YEAH ? just for me to actually hate him , but i just cant hate him . its difficult .
just not my luck . its just fate & concidence . you are just being UNreasonable , friends . think what you've done , i just cant say a thing . its just one idiotic problematic thing that made you guys think that way . really UNreasonable .
i just cant take any longer now . ive done so many things without any appreciation and i dont see the point , of me being good to ppl . seriously , i just wanna dissapear from your eyes . i dont want you to see me no more .
fate & coincidence , i had enough .

now , after all , you said that , how it hurts me , you wont know . how bad can it be ? seriously .

random . heh !

Sunday, February 1, 2009 @ 1:08 PM

hello ! (:

hahahaa . how can i start ? okay . last few days was soo sad . sosososo sad .
now , what i can see , left a little sunshine for me since he's gone . haiyah .
how i wish i can take back all my words, erase it that was typed out . now , imissyou . okay , back ! nothing much to say actually . okay , im happy that there's quite a number of sec 1's who joined NCDCC . (:
on saturday , nothing much . send my cousin sis to juying sec for her mendaki lesson . after that , was suppose to meet sha at jp . but im kind off lost , so yeah . i go head home & texted sha , asked her to go since she was her grandmother , so she went home , and i planned to go to her hse , when i reached home , im super thirsty , haha . seriously . haha ! i wanted to drink my 'fav' drink , too bad . tak kesampaian . so its okay . haha . sedih aku . around 330 , off to sha's hse , reached there , on comp , sha showed me some stuffs that was like , boooooooooooooooooh . haha . aroud 440 , im off to juying sec , to fetched my cousin sis . after that , hahahahah ! some evil things around .
*evil smile*
went home , wanted to do homework , but i dont have my colour pencils with me . so asked mum , whether she wanted to buy some stuffs & i could follow her to buy those stuffs and buy my colour pencils as well . since she agreed , went off to popular & for the very first time , i bought so many things , its like almost full one whole basket . kay , haha . random . and altogether was around 50+ , but we didnt use money , we use the vouchers that we have . so yeah . saved !
haha . lololololol . after that , i wanted to buy my fav food . heeees . (:
after that , went to the fairprice extra or the mega NTUC ? kay , nehmind .
haha . one thing , i love to go out with my parents when at market shopping is that , wtva that i wanted , they will actually allow me to buy it . (:
and yesterday , a good night . lol . i get to buy what i wanted . all such of foods .
now , my kitchen is full of junk foods . junk eh ? kay , more like tidbits and stuffs . heh ! and i love it . (: coz i love to munncchhh ! heh !
today , my sistersss planned to go to johor bahru to find stuffs for sister's wedding . too bad , i guess they cancelled it . and they just go to geylang and places to find things for sis's wedding . haha . siak !
its still kind off a long journey , not that long for me to have a brother in law , haha ! i have a sister in law ald . kay , stop that . today , i planned to just stay at home , do what im suppose to do . HOMEWORKS ! =.='
revisions all . haiyah . tiring siak today . lol .
tomorrow skewl .. ohmy . i felt so weak . till here peeps . bye ! (:

i felt so weak without you by my side now .
you light up my life like the rays of the sun , how i wish you would come back and shine me all over again .
MR [R] .