the first day i use tie .

Wednesday, December 31, 2008 @ 6:49 PM

hello hello hello.



okok , just now , using the tie , felt so awkward . haha . some more its hott !

haiyah . sungguh aku malas nak criter aperh jadi . nothing much lahh actually .

heh . and and , after all that , off to lib & jp . me & sha camwhore & keep camwhoring , haha ! till here . bye ~ (:

















our picture craps alot ! (:

helloh ! :D

weeee ~ me & shafiqa received our TIETIETIE ! (: hehhehh . - student councillor .
starting from tomorrow , we will be using it , but not sure lahh . but for tmrw and 1st jan confirm we will be using it . geeeeeeeeeeeeee :D what a pleasure to use that . x)
okay , just now , went to school , gotta do some jobs for tmrw and 1st jan .
shafiqa will be at the main gate & i will be the ushers , at somewhere lahh, they havent tell me yet . (:
so tmrw , actually must be in school by 10 . but we have to meet our student leaders by 930 .
so yeah lahh , me & shafiqa gotta wake up & go to skewl earlier . by 10 , we will already wearing our tie ! :D haha . siaksiaksiak !
just now after school , we go jp , wanna buy somethings , but before that i saw eekeen , and i high-5 with her , and she's with her mother , brother & her younger brothers/sisters i guess , then her mum also high-5 . i was about to 'salam' her , dhen she high-5 .
im like WOOOW . so yeah , just walked to the bus stop , waited for the bus , and saw Mr Suhaimi , Mr Sham & Mr Subas , Ms Tan & Ms/Mrs _____________ ?
After reaching interchange , Shafiqa tell me about this frozen yogurt thinggy , and i take a look , it was $3.45 with the toppings , its very nyce . the toppings we chse was strawberries, peaches, & oreo crushed . haha . its veryveryvery nyce . thanks eh sha . harga pun okay lahh . go to popular bought somethings , & shafiqa saw the Harry Potter book .
& there goes her crazy-ness . (: after that straight to jw , go to a salon , and cut our fringes .
GOD , I HATE MY FRINGE NOW . (: =.=' . Sha too i guess , coz she said she look stewpit with bangs ? heh . i really dont know , she just looked cute with it . heh . so i dont talk much about it . lol . after that she asked her mother , whether she cld actually buy the Harry Potter book , so her mother replied just with a 'K' . sungguh pathetic . dhen off we go inside jp 1 again , and bought the story book , i was listening to Didicazli's song . awww , so touching .
Aku tk boleh hidup kalau tak dengar lagu tu satu hari . HEH . (:
so off we go straight home. (:
home sweet home . heh . till here . (:

didisazli's video . his smile . awww . *melts*

cute & cool video of taufik . haha .

DIDISAZLI & ROBERT PATTINSON ! :D


HIS SMILE , *melting* !


HOHOHO ! hawt siak ! :D


OH . speechless ~


*faint faint faint*


HAIYAH ! *mengeluh mengeluh*

RCDP ! *wide smile*

ohmyohmy . they somehow , abit look alike right ? haha .
MR D.CULLEN ! (:
MR E.CAZLI ! (:

HELLOH .
omgomg , i dont know why . kindda happy , listening to didi's singing . its so touching my heart . omgomg , im melting . x) craps . kay , ystrd , at darul ma'wa , saw Didi . im like , awww . *melting* seriously . some more he weared white shirt . ohhh . hawtstuff .
my RP . Robert Cazli Didi Pattinson or Mr D Cullen . :D
sit there and watched the Ma'wa Idol . Seriously , i was super shocked to see my ex skewl mate there . i mean , a guy , who actually who used to skewl in PEPS , now in Darul Ma'wa .
He last time , so crazy siak , i mean , GILER , BIOL . understand ? cmpk kerusi pat chegu .
maybe i dont have to mention his name here lah . he joined the Ma'wa Idol , and he won 2nd place . Kewl kan ? omg . he's kindda got the looks & style , his voice not that bad . whoo ~
and the first place fr that was Taufiq/Taufik . He won , and he's only around my age ? omg , i tell you . HIS VOICE SUPERB LAHHH . he got package . he got style . the looks . omgomg , he's hawt !
most of the guys i saw , omg . hawtstufffffs . seriously . i still remember the celak guy .
sebijik mcm muker Mr Salihin . haha . seriously . many hawt & good looking guys in Darul Ma'wa . have style . thats superb . okay , after that , wtva2 , Didi's singing and all .
AUTOGRAPH TIME ! so me and sis line up , and when our time came , i was like sooo admiring Didi . haha . His Smile , seriously . melts me . :D
and , the time when my sis was taking pic with him , i took the picture , and my hand was so shakee-eeeyy , seriously , can see the nervous + shake-eeey-ness . haha .
and when i was standing beside him , im oin my own werl , as if there's only me & him .
hohoho . kay , im being honest aites ! haha .
seriously , he give me this wide smile . and my heart to actually beats better than last time .
haha . siak je aku .
and and !!! AKU JUMPE FIRMANNNNNN ! whoo ~ [ my ex skewl mate ] .
he's so good now . geee (: , better than last time , or the same ?
FIRMANN OIEK ! haha . selamer nie , kawan2 aku yg laen nk jmpe dier , nmpk nyer aku yg TERjmpe dier . hehh . what a coincidence . hawt hawt heat man .
one thing , after standing beside Didi , i was sweating . haha ! hawt sgt agknyer .
will upload pic soon . coz im having the trouble to insert pic to laptop , hp gone . heh .
kay , till here . bye peeps . :D

261108 .

heyhey ~ !
okay , just ended the celebration of my lil niece , aneeqa aizura . hah .
my aunty , uncle's fam , my abg , kakak ipar(s) was in the hse too .
let me start from the very first , just now , go jp , coz mum wanna buy birthday cake .
so yeah , me , my cous sis , and who ever , go follow my mum bought the cake .
and after that my cous sis wanted to walk around the jp 2 . so walked2 , [ ohmy , i was wearing my baju kurung , memalukann siakk ] . kay , dhen , walked & walked , my cous sis wanna go wallet shop , to look around for pencil box , atlast , she found one , i was finding wallet , haha . so she like offered , if i wanna buy , so i just take the offer lahh . hah .
go cb , buy a drink and go home . haha . i gotta secret to reveal !
me & my cous sis , walked home withOUT our shoes on . coz we were using high heels , just came back from my cousins ceremony . the anak , blah3 ? so our shoes killing our legs , so my cous sis planned that . so yeah , i agreed lahs . so we walked home withOUT using our shoes , just with no shoes , nothing . (: & we are happy that we got home safely . hahaha .
reached my hse , go straight to the toilet & wash our legs with my favourite soap .
dhen change shirts , and blah3 . go out frm the room & entertained my nieces & nephew .
help mum to carry the foods out on the table . watched ' dont forget the lyrics ' .
after that , around few hours or mins , my aunty & uncle with my cousins reached .
and we were like chit chatting and all . my aunty asked my bro's maid , my cous sis [ her daughter ] & myself to fold the shirts , and put inside the wardrobe . im like =.=' .
so i just do lahh , and when i was about to eat after all that , my aunty asked me & cous sis NOT to eat first , coz we will eat slowly and blah3 . coz they wanna cut the cake ald .
we starved but yeah , nehmind ehhhhh . dhen sing the birthday songs and after that my cous sis & me , straight to the table and take our food . (: at last !
after that , we munched , and eat & eat & munched chocolates , biscuits , and drink up .
wtva stuff . and yeah , we left one stack of folded shirts , haha . my cous sis lahh kann , she said eat first , and we left the shirts behind first . haha . siak je kiter .
dhen when my brother, sister in law, brother & sister of my sister in law were eating , my sister in law said ' cyn , kak ira dh rase tempeh yang cyn potong smlm ' . i was like HAHAHAH . sarcastically , coz the previous day , i was cutting the tempehs into cubes , and she saw me cutting it . =.= . and the others was like ' the mataer , pak mat tempeh ' . and wtva with the tempeh . i just ignore lahh kan , coz i know im single , and dont have to laugh abt it so hard . i was enjoying the chocolates . haha . and wtva , actually now , i was suppose to be in m'sia , or maybe otw home ? , coz i dont want to go to m'sia , just bcoz i wanna go to Darul Ma'wa to look out for Didisazli's launching his new album . with the ' impianku ' song inside it .
hope he sing that song . :D haha . just bcoz of Didi , i dont want to follow . heheh .
i told mum , and mum looked so sad . im sorry mum . :)
coz she wants me to follow her to m'sia , i mean , even if im there , one thing , i will miss Didi's showcase & 2nd , i will be a stupid girl there , so bored , coz my cousins there are still small . i mean , they are younger than me , and its suckish , to play with them or chit chat with them , coz they really dont understand me . i a lady ! :D
so yeah , i wanna slept over at my aunty's hse , coz on friday , my mum goes off to m'sia in the morning , and my sisters are working , i wont be staying alone at home doind nothing right ? so i slept over at my aunty's hse . hahah . and on on friday afternoon , go out with cous sis , watched movie at sun plaza , we watched ATAPS .
Angus , Thongs & Perfect Snoggings . hahah . i wld say Aaron Johnson , he is HAWT .
aku setia pade RP . HAHAH . X) kaykay , the show was awesome .
after that , wtva and we head home . and now , im at home , wanna go out frm hse in around an hr , coz wanna go to Darul Ma'wa with my sisters . hohoho . Didi , Here I Come . XD
so yeah , gotta go back to my aunty's hse , coz she's not around , she's in KL , with whole fam . i gotta slept over there again , to just check around . boohs , kay .
chatted with him , so shocked ! hohoho . :D
bye peeps .
- sorry if my post today kindda confusing , just understand it even though you dont . :D

hey .
ohmy . serious saddening . i really cant sleep well tonight . i wld say that .
serious , sungguh bukan itu yang aku mau . i cant believe this ?!
i thought he was trying to tricked me or something .
he even told shafiqa , he's moving , so yeah , i guess i shld believe . and what can i say , i believe ? ohmy . hard fr me to accept it . tell me his not moving yeah ?
he is just going fr some vacation okay ? okay . cried a lil otp with shafiqa . ohh , serious saddening . sha lahh , make it kindda sound sad , although i know , she was just trying to make out something funny , although its not . she's trying to like make me laugh , although i was laughing and its so fake . i know shafiqa knew it . oh . just wanna say takecare khai .
speechless ~ i gotta stay silent . in this hurtful situation . be happy for you ~
im so lost without you now , and now , you left me just like that . oh , im dying without you all over again .

oh my . i felt so sorry for the ones who lost their loved ones . till now , i havent feel how they felt , but i really dont wish to feel the way the felt . somehow , i know one day i will .
im sorry for fuzz . its really saddening . okay , lets end here before i burst into tears .
these days , its really hard for me cry . hah . weird hah ? i mean like , when i feel like crying then i will like cry . if not , its hard . if not last few weeks , i abit sad , i cried . hahhaa .
my aunty now in hosp , i gotta zip my mouth about what . but its really saddening , days have been bad for ppl yeah ? ppl have been busy , being sad . its suckish . haish ..
tmrw going to skewl , i guess , with rasidah , to go buy books , and after that , maybe following shafiqa , meet azizi & aizat [ azizi's fren ] . seriously , thats not what i wanted .
only i know why . ergh ! kays . just now watched isteri untuk suamiku and one of the part where they alya eating ice cream . haha . tiber2 siak , aku terase nk mkn ice cream . HAHA .
mengidam atau teringin ? haha . TERINGIN eh . haishh .. remember the days ...
so in the middle of the show , since kak las sending abang rizal to the road there , haha . coz he's going home & wanna take taxi , so yeah , after that , she called me to go out , with caca , buy ice cream . yumyum ! slurp ! :D and we saw , my brother and his frens were sitting at the bench , near the court . hahs . so yeah , i lost my $10 just to buy around 8-9 ice creams . coz 4 of them is for my brother & frens . hahs aku sedeyh eh , duit aku hilang . beli ice cream , but the ice cream was nyce lahh . (: haha . weird siak akuu .
hooho . kay , till here peeps . (: bye ~
moving on without you ...

oh seriously . that suckish ! having somekind of love problems ?
family problems ? i pity my frens lahh kann . why do adults just cant understand us ?

we want to try our best to just make you guys happy , and there goes you ppl just cant appreciate what we wanna do fr you ? we do our own things and really we dont wanna to menyusahkan mereka2 nie . ahyoh . really , thats fate ! & yea . i dont wanna explaen any futher . oh yes , my brother & my niece coming . my brother khaizuran , and aneeqa !

i want anieq to come lerrhs . anw , HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANEEQA AIZURA ! (:

kay yeah , today kindda busy , gotta help mum , do somethings . booh .

i soso super the bored . anyone , CALL ME LAHHHH ! chit chat kayy ?

or nudge me in msn . ohhh serious siak . kay , till here . mls nk bobal lagyy .

anw , KHAN , stop asking me when are we going out eh ! thanks .

eeeeeeeeergh ! bye ~ (:

moving on without you ..

yaw !

you see , i gotta post , idk why . serious saddening ! idk why . felt like crying .
you see , till now , i still dont get it , why must he take a leave , and im the one here suffering like hell . seriously . idk wt_ he wants , what actually he meant by breaking up .
till now , ive got no idea whats the reason . kay , why im talking about this ?
kay , thanks , to some ppl whch actually remind me , and making me feelign so restless tonight , to just type out all this words . when can i say ' kekasih yang dulu hilang , kini datang kembali pulang , akan ku bawa dia terbang , besama bintang ' ?
hahs . thats the lyric from the song ' kembali pulang by kangen band ' .
kay , i gotta change topic , OH IM SUFFERING ! , for god sake , im saying this .
kay , let me say about my top fav songs . kays ?
- impianku ~ didicazli
- kembali pulang ~ kangen band
- a little too not over you ~ david archuleta [ the song in my blog now ]
- aku bukan superstar ~ project pop
every song that was played in the radio that day , reminds me of you .
one of the song played ' tshirt by shontelle . booh . superb saddening .
kay , haha . i helped many ppl today . coz my mind is kindda back to normal .
haha ? kay , my memory not that full , so i can think well . and i felt better .
haha . kalau tak , aku mcm budak gilerzsx , bang bang kepale . [ like real siak ].
hahs ! (: kay , till here . anw , he's back for godness sake . hoh !
somehow , he's going away again ? im referring to M H . who ever you want ~ (:
bye peeps . :D

oh hello !

hey , seriously , ive been editing my blog for 3 days continuesly . spelling error ?
its super duper tiring , stressful , pathetic . coz i really cant find the perfect one.
even if i did , it will be abit of distortation . haha . siak je . is there any such word ?
just now , im really having a heavy headache . in my mind have 101 things that im thinking about . its seriously making my mind booosh ! haish , thanks to my mum , she asked me to go to the shop to buy something , so i thought of buying coke , haha . seriously , going out , taking some fresh air , drinking coke , makes my headache go off just like that .
so around 715 , my headache just go off like that , and without any stressful feeling , im done with my idiotic blog . errgh !
i just cant stop thinking of him . coz deep down my heart im still hoping .
although i know that what im hoping MAYBE cant be true . doinkdoinkdoink !
how i wish , starting the new year , new hours , new minutes , new seconds with the one i love. its nice right ? having the countdown together . its so nice . too bad , i really cant have it . i guess . how do you feel , its gonna be really nice , right ?
its okay , coz i believe fate , thats the way i was suppose to live ?
still till now , ppl still asked , why i this & that with him . its stupid .
i gotta be sarcastic AGAIN . it hurt alot , but i heck care lahh . my heart bleed, not me .
he asked me those things , and what does he expect me to say ? ITS YOU ?! ahyah !
i guess , he know its him im referring to , although actually he like really NEVER bother . maybe abit . thats pathetically him . haishhhhhh ..
its okay then yeah ? kay peeps . till here . bye ~ :)

although i know , how painful my heart hurts , im still patient , waiting for you to tell me somethings , although it might not happen .
im sure , one day , he & him will show me the answer , coz every bad things , there is surely good things . (:

hey peeps !
eh , cannot sleep lahh seh !
idk what im thinking about .. so restless !
ahyoh . i know , im thinking , but idk what im thinking about !
grrrrr ! pfftt ! hmphhh ! =.='
bubbye . nytes . (:

oiek ! (:

hahah ! okayokay . let me see what im suppose to talk about .... OKAY !
erm ... yeah ? natyqa & shafiqa just came back from m'sia .
aku duduk pay sgp je ehhhhhhh . baek kannnn ? aku bored sehh ! =.='
nvrmind , going m'sia this coming saturday , will be back by sunday . hahah .
coz sunday ive got something on , meeting someone . (:
going with my sis , this time not meeting BIL , but meeting the idol . (:
i guess , some of you shld know who , coz the ppl showed about this sunday in facebook .
oh , aku suker lagu dier . IMPIANKU . i fall for the song . all over again .
so come back to sgp in the morning , and straight go to the place . (:
kay yeah , talking about idol , artist , both of my brother this few days , or can be next few days also lahhs , they kept photoshoot-ing Zaibaktian , you guys know who right ?
the guy , the song now , in ria charts , in the 3 position . something like that .
the album Lelaki Baru , & one of the song called Lelaki Baru .
i wanna follow them go photoshoot lah seh . ish !
kay , I.A.S , kept quite ald , gd lahs . fadly pun . pp8 low eh ? hahs !
and some of them , still the same . boooooooooooh . capekkkk !
no lah , im okay with it . hahs ! kay pple . im bored .
oh yeah , the rose is dying ald , as what he said , if the rose dying , its also the same as his love towards me also dying . hehhhhhh . idk what to say liao .
kay , till here . asalkan aku update ehh . (:
byebye . (:

im still not over you .. a little too not over you .. ahyoh .. deep down my heart , im still hoping . but i will try to stop hoping ... haishh ....

assalamualaikum ~ (:

hahah ! i just figured out something . & yeah , its true , today i have something on to say . haha !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR F ! (:
& JOKER FAM ! ALL OUT ! (:
gotta check out fr some gd stuffs . new stuffs frm my blood .
YEAYYA . today is a happy day fr me . at last yeah ?
leaving the loveeeee behind . (:
having the friendship in my hand . (:
hahs . geeeeeeeeeeeeee :D
felt as if my werl is so bright now . i love it .
bubbye readers . gotta go dress up ! hahah .
tc , evol .

HEYHO !

ppl , oh , just now was GREAT ! (:
the sec 1 registration was like really fun fr me . looking at my juniors ! its funn !
me & shafiqa was placed atvv
the financial assistance scheme registration table there , and like , we are suppose to also welcome the parents & our junior to go to which counter that they were suppose to lah kans ?
sgo yeah , when there was like someone to smue we said , ' gd morning , welcome to pioneer secondary , which counter or class are you in ?' '
and some things . its really fun lah kans fr me . hahs !
then asked them to shift in all . hahs . almost at the end of the thinggy , shahrul & syaiful came over to our place . and like , we change our name tag . haha .
giler siak kiter orang . (: dhen like sit there , msging , calling . haha .
kewpt calling numbers out , stacked up chairs and all .
lastly , we saw all the NCDCC-ians like finished their jobs and they all proceed to canteen , expect fr me and shafiqa . we are like ' are we done ? ' . haha .
ask aunty , and asked to look fr mr suhaimi , blah3 . last2 we just go home .
and like , shafiqa , rasidah , nabila , shahrul , syaiful , hazwan , solihin , syawal & me walked off together , BUT iffah called us back to sign out . =.=' .
and shahrin , shahdan , nurul and iffah asked us to stayed back until 5 .
and its like all 'tanduks' UP . hahah . and lastly , we the sec 1 WASNT suppose to stay back . its like so wt_ ? coz , kiter dimaki oleh shahdan & shahrin , coz kiter like complaen , and its shit coz ma'am didnt even asked us to stayed back lah !
pandai kan budak2 sec 2 nie . serious siak . damn it betol . kay tkperhs .
haha , after that , go off to kfc , chit & chat , eat & drink . after that we all go our separate ways , me & sha , go off to IMM , coz her mum , aunty , fathin & grandmother . we walked arnd IMM , do stuffs , dhen go to jp , do stuffs also . after that , we go back to sha's hse , its also the same that , i go to her hse . hahs ! ahah . dhen , kemas her bilik abit . she asked lah kans . haha .
open songs , listen to songs , & sha , otp with azizi . aku pat ctu , cmm bdk pandai , tulis namer ' budak - budak ' , pat dier nyer whiteboard . haha .
after that , watched this show . indonesia ghost story & i called this guy ANDIKA was in the showwwww ! AHHH ! serious man , i was melting . MR A !
hahs . (; kay , after that around 6+ , go homeeeee and all ! DONE .
byebye readers . (:

heyho !

kay pple . gotta confess somethings .
i really had fun today , with I.A.S . we catch a movie , twilight . again ? (:
i love the present he gave me . haha . really , i love it alot .
thankyousomuch fr treating me . & yeah , i wont be forgetting , when he so called force me to eat . he really never ever gives up . ohmy . i have to eat infront of a guyfriend fr the first time , kay , 2nd time .
seriously , shits all around me . hahs ? yeah .
he really have been one of a kind guy to me . tytytysm !
and yes , HAPPY BIRTHDAY I.A.S ! (:
its 18/12 today . EIGHTEEN ! (:
the thing i gotta say to him , i really had fun today .
i do really explore him just now , he is really one of a kind guy .
im really lucky to have him in my life , as my friend .
and im sorry that i cant take him to be in my life . i mean , in my heart .
my heart is just so frozen , cant melt it , coz its like totally hard .
im not ready yet . im so sorry I.A.S .
im sorry , i had to be ur present just fr a day .
not fr the next few days , months or even years ? .
im sorry . lets just be good friends aytes ?
seriously , i really lose this very hard to find chance .
im so deng , but my heart just said no . i gotta say this . i wanna cry !
but yeah , i just gotta be honest . my dear , ITS FATE !
& i know , eu do believe in fate . im sorry , its not eu to enter my heart YET .
so yesyes . let me end this .
tmrw going to skewl , early in the morning fr sec 1 orientation .
yeay ! can see my juniors . harap2 lah drg nie tk action lah kan ... =.='
kay , till here . update again tmrw . and not forgetting , i love going out with shafiqa , fathin & caca . haha . jadi sister sitter lah kans ? hahs . heees . (:
hehs . BYE ! (:

please melt my heart . i dont wanna lose this limited chance that every girl wanted . guess , thats fate ...

*yawns*

hey . sleepy siak . hahas .
kay . awww , i love it.
singing , playing guitar , drum & piano .
huhurhs . its awesome .
Mr F & Mr A . (:
So yeahs . what did i do just now or ystrd night ?
oh yes . yesterday night , watched isteri untuk suamiku & otp with adshah .
hahahs . nice talking to him . good thing . (:
feel like talking to him again . (:
kay , today . i was suppose to be busy . but yeah , idk what im gonna be busy-ing about . hahs .
i wanna go downtown next week with them ~ !
but yeah , not sure .
seriously , this man is shitting all around me . oops . i mean , he kept saying this & that . and yeah , im not comfortable with him . so yeah , trying to avoid him , but he kept coming to me . that suckish !
hahs . okok , till here . will update more if there's time . haha .
byebye ~ ! (:

~ you may lye here in my arms ~

hey !

okay . today i go to town , to cathay orchard with khan to watch a movie .
and we watched TWILIGHT . awww , i love the show man !
its awesome .
ROBERT ! ahyoh . super hawsome ! - hawt + handsome . get it ?
kay , aku kluar dgn khan psl nk cheer him up aje .
still im feeling normal , he wanna cheer me up , but yeah .
i get so irritated . AKU KENEK BULLY !
siaksiaksiak !
sungguh not in the mood .
he said something which i really really dont wanna know . or whatever ?
its booosh ~ !
kay , aku sungguh the malas nk crite .
ahyoh !
kay .
I LOVE ROBERT ! (:

bye ~

helloh fellow peeps !

hahas . its nyce to listen to him singing . (:
no more feelings fr eu .
totally close down . haha .
just be frens . GOOD frens yea .
no more things hurting me abt eu .
let the past just be dead and thats it . [ nk dikebumikan tk ? ] =.='
anddd yeah . haha .
now , let me see . oh yea .
just now go jp with sha , met azizi & aizat .
superpathetic.com
go to the new jurong point ? hahas .
planned to watch movie , since there's no much choice and some reason so we just walk around the new jp .
around 2-3 hrs , walk there . haha .
oh , i love the new place now .
more shops . kindda like abit vivo style & abit of downtown mall style .
somemore have mini toons . such places . oh i love it . (:
hahah . kay , why am i talking abt this thing ? haha .
okay yes .
siakk je , aku kenek pekik dgn kak tutty psl somethings whch is funny .
that i guess so called mendatangkan kemarahan pat dier .
hahah . she's not angry but act angrily . =.='
harinie telinge aku disumbat oleh kate2 yg BAEK , so yeah lah .
hahah . seriously .
im having fever & headache now .
oh , im sicked again .
tkperh , tkya mkn ubat , dgr suare dier dah baek . :D
hahas .
kay most probably tmrw going out with khan .
&& on my mind now , why must this month be a rlshp prob to most of the ppl .
seriously , when i heard someone's prob , surely its abt rlshp .
ahyoh . saddening siak .
kay dah , mabok mabok !
till here peeps .
bubbye ~ (:

helloh again dearest .

oh today sucksucksucksucksuckx seriously .
i hate today . so saddening .
without any high hopes , still its saddening with what happened just now .
superrrr not OUR day . i mean , my sisters and me .
having somekind of love problem ? seriously .
kayyyy dahhhhh !
anw , sorry kalau tak reply msg atau lmbt reply ke aperh .
hp rosak . currently borrow & give back my sibs hp .
just to check any msges . so yeah .
again , im sorry if im not me this days .
yes , im not . idk , feeling so sad .
no hope no hope .
just need you to tell me a thing whch you think i wanna know . FULL STOP .
so yes . im dying . booooooooooooooooooooooooooh !
ohkay , till here dhen peeps .
bubbyeeeeeeeee !

you'll always mean lots more to me than you could ever guess.

hey yaw !

before i go out from my hse .
let me say something .
hahas !
I WANNA MEET BIL again .. =.='
kay yes , i really dont see hope anymore . seriously .
so yeah , shld i let it die ?
and tell you guys that what my blog is trying to say was just a lie ?
i just need to knw the truth thats all whether ...
so yeah , i will just shuttup and see whats gonna happen .
its up to him to decide yea now .
i dont wanna say a thing .
if there's love it will bring us back ? yesyes .
oh , im having headache & abit of nausea .
gotta meet BIL in this sickening situatuion .
damn it lahs !
hahs .
kay till here .
let me see , is there another surprise ?
hehs . LASTLASTLAST !
shikin just shuttup dhen yeah ?

AKU SAKETTT !

kay till here dhen .
bubbye . tc readers . :D

ooooooh laaaaaaa laaaaaaaaa ! (:

hey yaw !
i wish upon a star* . i wish . i wish . i wish .
haiyahh !
hoping that what shafiqa said ystrd will be true .
hohs !
okay yes . i really didnt expect anything ystrday
but yeah , i love ystrd night somehow. (:
thanks fr being there for me sha . (:
heheh . (:
till here .
byebye ~ (:


get back dearest ~

1) the person who passed this quiz related to you ?
yesyes . its my bestF , shafiqa . (:

2)Whats your favorite thing to do ?
dont ask . idk . hahah ! (:

3)Who are the most impt ones to you ?
Shafiqa , him , and the one who is always there for me . coz i need them everytime.

4)Name 5 things that you cant live without .
Handphone , laptop , the bear , window media player and ? - are those things ?

5)What are you afraid to lose ?
kindda him , shafiqa & my handphone , too bad , i lose 2 of them ald .

6)Who is the last person you thought of ?
him.

7)Anything you want to say to this person ?
GET BACK & ievoluoy .

8)What is the one thing you want to do badly now ?
Tell him the truth , the thing he wants to know ? .

9)If you could do 1 thing all over again , what will it be ?
Settle things properly with him & celebrate our days ? .

10)Do you have someone you like currently ?
Like ? Noo . Love . YES ! (:

11)Any last word to say to people arnd you ?
Be Patience To The 'Bad' Things That Ald Happened,
Be Happy and Cherish The 'Good' Things Thats Happening .

bye ~ (:

ohmygodohmygayohmygodohmygay.

HEY !
sorry jyeah havent update since last few days .
i slept over at my aunty's hse at bkt btk . HEHEH .
kay yeah , HP AKU ROSAK LAGI . DENGDENGDENG !
oh , so many things happened during im not around with friends .
ohmy , thank god , the problems are now settled . (:
so yeah , actually on tues , aunty came over to my hse .
dhen mum said tmrw go hosp with aunty to visit my cousin .
so yeah , i packed bag and so sleep over at her hse .
the next day , after visited my cousin , dhen go jalan2 , got nausea !!
i hate it . idk why , dhen the nausea thinggy continued the next day .
so my aunty said to stay lah fr a few days .
actually i wanna go home ! HAHA .
so yeah , nehmind , just stay , go shopping and all , but yeah , im not feeling well . but just follow if not i will be at bkt btk alone . so boring .
so just follow aunty . heheh .
so yeah , go shopping and all lah . blah3 , had fun although im sick !
so yeah , many things actually happened .
and yah . how i wish i cld rewind time and like let it past , be a happy ending .
just wanna wish to the ppl , haha !
10 decemeber - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAUFIK ! (;
& saddening story i wont be sharing .
12 december - happy birthday father ! (:
so sorry , i didnt attend fr the whole rehearsals . hahah .
im seriously sicked !
as i walk surely im like walking not that straight . so yeah . haha .
kay , shld i stop here and continue with new post that sha asked me to like do it ?
so yeah .
bye fr now . ~ (:

yawww !

going out soon , meeting BIL !
talking otp with Fadly now . (;
hahas . im boreddddd .
ader je si fadly mepek !
asek puji diri dier tuhh , busy lah konon , byk orng msg . BLUEH !
irritating siak !
hahas , but funnnnn lahs .
anymore surprise fr today ?
haha . i wish i wish .
PLEASE ?
till here .

bye ~ :D

Labels: MR F

oh yaw !

today super the boring !!
seriously . MENDAK !!!
anw , chat with him .
superthefcukingirritating when he said MRS F .
MR F is just my bestfren !
andand , everytime i said about a guy that i want or what ? , the one im referring was to be with him .
doink ! hahas .
too bad , he doesnt knw it . (:
errgghhh !!
im so pissed off when he totally cant understand that im really really afraid of this adults that is like wanna really get to knw me .
1 guy came back , 2 guy came back , 3 guy came back , 4 guy came back , and another new one pass by .
OOOOOOOOOOOOOH !
seriously , i wish to be IAR then i suffer from all this guys coming back to my lyfe .
sungguh , aku tak layan , drg yg offer ! damn it .
too bad , i actually cant ignore them when they talked to me coz i dont want them to think im arrogant pulakkan after everything that happened . HEH .
so yah , dearest , every single thing i said that makes you wonder and think , im referring to you .
and lets see whats gonna happen next .
HAPPINESS or SADNESS ?
YEEAAAYYYYAA !
tomorrow meet BIL . wheeeee ~
whats next ? (:
till here .

bye ~ :D

youaregettingworseandthanksyouarehurtingmemorebyyourwords.

heyho ! :D

god ! haha . what can i say again ?
im sosososo excited , still idk why ?
haha . shikin shikin , becoming so nervous . hahs .
why eh ? lols .
hahas .
cant wait for sunday , another surprise ? :D
haha .
all in a line , 4 waiting passengers . (: x)
which one to pick ? lols .
i hate this part .
this is always what happen when im back to single .
haha . stop it siak . (:
no event for today . yeah .
kindda bored .
till here ~

bye ~ :DD


Mr 'F' !

heyheylow !

yesyes !
at last , one wish accomplished ! ?
thanks kak tutty for treating me and making my day . :D
kindda destress abit . lols .
so , today i got .. a top , shades , a bag and my facial wash -.- . haha !
and ya , i still got arnd $20 to buy my skewl stuff . lols .
thats what i want ~ .
andand , i talked to my sis about what happened to me .
thanks fr being my counseller ~ ?
JEALOUSY JEALOUSY JEALOUSY !
totally i can see that clearly dearest . (:
hahs . lols .
its funny but totally not funny now .
its saddening . bboohh !
kay , till here . haha .
update again tmrw . (:

bye ~ :D


oh boy , im missing you ~

heyho !

feeling better today .
still im still looking back .
err , shikin just stop it .
and seriously , just now in the morning , he texted me , and i tried to explaen still it became some kind of a quarrel . ergh .
seriously , i hate what i said yesterday , what i did yesterday .
yes , when im hurt and i wanna fight fr something , i wld do that way .
sha knews it . hahs .
kak tutty texted me in the morning , since she's at work .
she texted , asking whthr i wanna go out , to release stress , she's available after 5 . so yeah .
she gave me this 3 choices .
1) watch movie .
2) go seaside .
3) go shopping .

totally , so hard fr me to choose . heh .
coz all 3 i want . hah !
and what actually happened to me , all this take days . or weeks . or even months .
but i knw , i can recover frm this thinggy for a few weeks .
~ the wounded heart wont be perfect again ~
he thought im happy by him leaving me ?
oh boy , ur so wrongwrongwrongXXX .
only me , myself knews it .
even if i explaen here ? ...
okay . im so lost ~
hahs .
till here .

bye ~

hey !

ohoh , ended at 5:58 PM , 4 December 2008 .
im relieved , idk why . HAHA !
anw , i wanna thank , sha , khan , dirah , lala . and whoever that was there fr me just now . (:
kay , i realise that !
now , love gone , words gone , memories gone .
now , let everything we've gone true be sweet & bitter memories .
hahas . now boy , god knews everything u've done all this while .
so yeah , what i wanna say , what goes around , will comes around .
woo ~ im single & im happy .
feeling the freedom . (:
hahas . idk , yes , im hurted , yes im sad , but im happy too ?
wierd siak kau shekyn . haha .
okay !
LETS GO ON LIFE SHEKYN ! :D
with the love given from ur friends . (;
to khai , we are still friends , anw , jgn sombong2 , bobal selalu .
and and , kiter maseh jiwer kan ? - ans my qn please if u did read this post .

bye ~ ;D

- im NOT being sarcastic .

heyloh !


oh , im back dearest ! ;DD
okay , sorry . idk why im active today but kindda worried .
kay ,abt the CLT POP thinggy . oh , i prefer NDP seriously . (:
kay , mls nk crite .
im having nausea . ergh ! sicked !
anw , thanks wan fr telling me . i hope what u said is not true .
if it does , i wont be surprise lah , coz like ?
its true what adshaz said , [ last time ] ,
love cant be force , yes thats right .
now still i guess , ur not into me . i knew that .
no more loving me , ryte ?
i dont need to know any lies , why dont u tell me honestly ?
what do u think abt our relationship now ?
being honest , wld be much better fr me then u being silent , idk a thing ?
its worst , u lied , u hurt urself , it hurts me more than u ever think .
being honest wld be better ryte seriously ?
please , im begging u , tell me now , what do u want frm me .
please , dont hurt me futher , i had enough .
u being honest , tell me what do u want next , i'll be fine .
im still waiting fr u to say something , something gonna happen , something rite .
although love must go away .. i will accept it . im still confuse , tell me .
please .
oh love , please .

oh love , please believe , i still love you , dont make this things worse , lets just settle it together in a good way . please .

helloh !

ohoh , im so relieved ,

thank god , he listens to my prayers .

anw , thank you fr letting me know the real thing .

and just wanna say ,

please honey , be back !

i hope so .

i'll be waiting . (:

-shekyn

oh hey ,
i gotta be frank here . i really really know that you are trying to avoid me .
still ive got no idea whats ur problem , whats in you , and ur thinking .
why just cant you be honest , and say everything you wanna say or do ?
why must you make me wait ?
and this love thinggy totally fade away , totally gone ?
this is worse , totally worse then what i thought .
and pls , dont make it even worse , please !
im here trying to save this relationship , dher u ignore me .
oh great ? whats next ?
i know its also my fault , but still i do have a heart to give way to our relationship and save it .
guess ur not interested ?
now , here , im begging you .
tell me what do you want next ?
where is all your words , ur promises , where is it gone to ?
since she exist in ur world , u change alot , boy .
you said , you're gonna be back , ive waited and im still waiting ,
but i still didnt see a bit of it , somehow , its getting worse .
where's the real you ? the one i know , the one i admire always .
where is it gone to ?
say it boy . be honest with me , i will be fine , i wld love you to be honest with me .
i know , things change , time change , people change .
thats what sha said , thanks shafiqa , for hearing all my silent scream .
feeling abt my silent cry . thankyousomuch for understanding . (:
boy , i gotta be honest . im begging you to talk to me something , say something that you wants it to happen , although if it does hurt me .
i will be glad , coz ur honest . please , tell me something .
im still waiting , giving you some spaces , i will , i do .
the thing is that , i just need you to be honest , open your eyes and see reality .
we have no much time in this world .
somehow , we gotta go on wtva happens .
please , i just need you to say something , either to save , or to just ***** .
just be frank , i'll be glad to know , coz u being honest .
i dont understand you but please , make me understand you .
now , im just giving you some spaces .
im always there for you when you need me .
I W A L Y !

and helloh again .
god ! it is worse than i thought it would be ?
kay , first of all , i hate today somehow .
totally , what i hope just like boooosh ~ ?
its sucksucksuckx !
felt days so shitty !
still ive got no idea to find the way out from this stupid sickening problem .
oh oh , shikin is sicked of this .
and shikin is so sorry to mr khai abt just now in the lib , the farhan thinggy .
i didnt meant that , but i get so excited looking at hot guys .
and yah , im telling the truth . only certain guys which look good to me .
im sorry fr hurting anyone . :')
thank eh ? for the another problem .
anw , we are sorry for letting sidah & lala down .
we didnt meant any harm .
we are so sorry to left u out .
we didnt meant all that , we are so sorry , especially from me , im sorry .
oh haha !
chatting with hazwan in romoe's acc is super the fun .
thanks eh fr kindda cheering me up . hahas !
(:
somehow , he crappppp alot ! (:
hoho !

kay , thats all for today .
bye dearest ! (;

hellohh ~ !

gooody gooofy !
god ! i dont know what to tell ?
i mean , ive got no stories ?
but yah , just telling abt the days i had .
its like -onlygodknewsit- . its badbadbadbadbad !
now , having badbadbad cold . & ystrd caught me having fever !? .
days been so gedhebooosh ~ or gechegek ~ !
looking at him & her . hehs . thank god he saved my heart from dying . :D
kay yes . today's plan was so called cancelled , was suppose to have this jiwer outing , with shafiqa , azizi , khai , natyqa and hazwan .
somehow what we plan like doesnt work coz hazwan said he cant go coz his mother wanna bring him to the doctor or something ?
natyqa kindda lazy to go . so yah . idk her.
azizi & sha can go . so yah , i kept asking khai , will he go , coz actually he's having rugby , so i thought maybe after rugby he wld be tired or something ?
yah , dhen i asked him again ystrd night , he said , look first .
dhen blah3 , after few messages he said he will be going , yah ?
dhen i said , okay , since sha & azizi , khai & me .
better we leave sha & azizi all alone ? *evil smile*
dhen khai & me alone too , we go our own way ? yeah .
- coz i got something to settle with him .
so yeah ! im so . . .
yah ! and lets see what will happen today .
gonna be good or bad ?
hahas ! pray for the best lah ! (:

bye blog readerss !

A lady who will go crazy over something thats related to vampires or fangs .
18 May 95 .
Weird . Crazy . Sarcastic .

Just for You.
I'm Nothing.
USPY TURSY .YES .THATS ME !
Tmrw is April.
24 hours ?
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Ache.
You.
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